Worthless

[Guest_1055]

Hello

I am wanting to know if anyone else feels just worthless. And what they did about that feeling that creeps inside of you.

Thanks

[Chicken_Wings]

Thats an interesting idea Kazzl. Sometimes the "Thread Killer" thread feels a bit like that. 
There isn't really a structure to it, but its a bit of fun.

Shelley I design things like billboards, posters, websites, magazine ads, that sort of thing. Anything that is visual that can be used to get people to buy things they don't need... sorry everyone!
Thats one part of my job anyway. 

Mary, congratulations on beating the cancer, you are a brave woman. I hope you're finding improvement over time without your ADs; I don't know if I'm brave enough to ever stop taking mine. It must feel good to know you're doing this, even if its tough at times. 

I hope everyone is doing well today. Its 39 again here today so I'll be staying inside as much as possible!
Feeling a weird mixture of good and apprehensive. My normal morning anxiety only lasted until about 9:30 and although I should be glad for it, it's making me a little nervous, like something is missing. Isn't that strange.

[Guest_1055]

Oh CW  it does properly feel strange, but as I was reading that last couple of sentences that you wrote, I wonder if you should just celebrate, I don't know, but I could almost see you..... even though I don't know what you look like..... well jumping up and down, maybe on that bouncy castle thing. Yeah, yeah ,yeah

Hugs xxx 

[Guest_1055]

Afternoon  Kaz, you do sound very excited about your idea. I really don't know if it is a good idea or not. Though it could be fun....

You know, no you probably would not know this.....but when I started this thread, the title that I chose was exactly how I was feeling at the time. And I do still have this feeling at times, but not so intense as on the day, that I wrote the title.

In fact the very next day, the title just blared out at me so boldly and forceful, that I didn't like it. So I privately emailed Beyond Blue and asked them to remove my thread, because the title was still staring at me with such force. They emailed me back and said they wouldn't, because some people had already replied and that it could help someone else. So it stayed.

Hugs to 

Shelley xxx

[Guest_5218]

Hi everyone.  If like me you've had the misfortune of needing to go shopping this week, then you would know what a nightmare the shops are at present.  Yuk.  Today is my day to visit the old lady in the Nursing home and she wanted to go to the shops.  So I took her out to a coffee shop and then to the shops for a few things she wanted to get.  Of course it was lovely to take her out of the Home, which I do fairly frequently, but not this week!  Oh well, we both made it back okay in the end, and she's happy with her purchases.  Thats what it is all about after all.  So that took all morning and into the afteroon by the time I picked up a few groceries to last me until Boxing Day.  And thats why I havent been on here to check on what you've all been up to.  At least I've kept busy the past 2 days, and thats important for me.  It distracts me from other less constructive thoughts.

Kazzl - No, I wasnt aware that you are an alcoholic.  Wow, I have even greater admiration for you now than I did before.  That must be really tough for a young woman to go through what you would have done.  And a huge congratulations on your major achievement of being sober for 2 years.  Is that part of the reason you had a career change from journalism?  My daughter is a journo, but no longer working in that industry either.

Your idea of a Cafe type arrangement within the BB Forums sounds to me like a great idea.  Do you see it as operating the same as the current thread system, or different somehow?  If it were a genuine 'chat room' it would be better because you get an immediate response.  But of course with BB, it is moderated, hence there is usually a small delay, and sometimes a long delay.  But if it becomes UNmoderated, then it could open up all sorts of problems.  Definitely worth thinking about, but possibly some problems along the way.  Perhaps the BB Moderators and Admin people could advise further on the possibilities.  It need not take away from the current "Worth-Less" thread, it would be in addition to it.  And Shelley Anne, that's interesting that you tried to take down your original Post for this thread.  I'm glad they didnt allow it!  What a great bunch of people you have attracted to this thread as a result.

Hey, CW's - Thats great that your usual anxiety only lasted till 9.30am.  Did you have a nice breakfast today?  Its an indication though isnt it that our feelings of anxiety is such that, without it, we feel something is wrong.

Out of words!

Sherie xxx  

[Kazzl]

Hiya Shel hun. Thanks for the response. Would you post there if I start the thread?

Hope you're having a good day. I got my Christmas food in, had a nap, read my book for a while, and now it's raining and cool. Lovely. I could get used to this holiday thing.

xx

[Guest_1055]

This is carried from my last post.......I am very thankful now though, and I am glad they didn't remove it.  Because I have been helped very much , by feeling a sense of connection. This actual connection has helped me not feel not so worthless, and that there are people that truly care. Plus I am always interested in reading what other people have to say. And I'm glad that you and others have posted here.

Anyway Kaz, whatever choice you make, I would definitely pop over and post in your new thread. 

Hug xxx

Shelley

[Guest_5218]

I posted a long message about 3pm today - and it still hasnt appeared !!!

It was quite a long post too, addressing each of you.  Please dont think I have abandoned you all.

I will wait though, as last time this happened it finally appeared the following day.

Hope you find it worth waiting for, if it finally arrives.

Sherie xx

[Guest_1055]

Hey STS aka Wayne,

Still missing you........ If you read this please know I care about you. And I am hoping you are out of the dark place now. If not please, please know you will be OK, you will be OK.

Sending you a huge hug to you.

Shelley xxx

PS  Is little Lucy sitting at your feet again?

[Chicken_Wings]

What a strange day. I've felt pretty good, but bad feelings are just there in my peripheral vision. 

Does anyone else get that? When you're having a good day and keep remembering that you felt like rubbish yesterday and it's kind of a bummer. Every now and then I'd think about something that upsets me and feel sort of flat about it.

does heat make it worse for other people too?

were going to see a movie later and even though I want to go, I'm also nervous. Nervous about the movies!

[Guest_1055]

Hey CW, I don't think I have experienced exactly that. But what I have experienced is when I feel like happier, like I feel good, I sometimes also get this uncomfortable feeling at the same time. Almost like you are used to feeling a certain way, and you are sort of at home with it. Then along comes a better feeling , which does feel a bit foreign or something. Because it's new..... Is that a bit like you then?

Sometimes I also over think things, which causes trouble for me, and forget to be thankful that I actually do feel better.

What movie are you going to see, it should be cooler in there.

xxx

Ah Sherie hope you post does pop up soon because I really want to read it. Did your day go OK?

xxx