Worthless

Guest_1055
Community Member

Hello

I am wanting to know if anyone else feels just worthless. And what they did about that feeling that creeps inside of you.

Thanks

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Its just gone 3pm here.

I work full time at an advertising company. My workplace is wonderful and I really do enjoy most aspects of my job. I get to make things and be creative and sometimes be a little silly. I think I'm pretty lucky with how supportive they are too. For a long time my job has defined me a lot.
There have been days over the last month where I've just needed to drop everything and leave and they are fine with it. My boss said to me once that anything that needs to happen at work pales in comparison to my health so never to worry.

I should make more of an effort to leave my desk though. I get so caught up that I forget to walk around and interact with other people.

My boyfriend offered to make me eggs on toast or fresh fruit with yoghurt this morning. I settled on just having an apple, but I couldn't do it. I took it to work with me and finished it at about 10am.

Fighting is so tiring! Im feeling tired now, I'll have another apple and see if I pick up a bit.

I'm excited for you and your new job tomorrow. You're going to be learning new things and I've found that learning and concentrating really improves my state of mind.

Hey Wayne,

I am hoping you are OK out there with your little Lucy and your sheep.I am missing you.

Hugs

Shelley xxx

 

Shelley you are so wonderful. Every message I see from you shows genuine empathy for other people and although you want it, you so very rarely ask for support other than just sharing stories. 

I wish I was as strong as you.

Im feeling pretty scared this morning and perhaps better suited to the anxiety forum. But I just wanted to connect with the people in here because I feel safe here. 

I don't know how to do this any more. When am I going to get better? I just want to live my life.

Hey CW

I am not really strong at all, even though it may appear that I am. Because right now I am sitting in my comfy chair, in the corner of the room with tears rolling down my face.

Because sometimes it hurts so much all I do is cry. I am sorry you are so scared this morning, so I am crying for you as well. , because I so much want you to be free, from all the fear that you have inside of you. Free from everything that holds you back. Can't even see the screen here properly now, it's blury.

I have grown to care about you so much, so please know that.

With many hugs to you

Shelley xxx

Kazzl
Blue Voices Member

Hi Chookie, sorry to hear you're struggling today. It's good you feel safe here and no wonder, there are some very special people hereabouts, of which you're one.

Advertising industry eh? I can imagine how that could be exciting, exhausting and frightening all at the one time. I'm in communications - ex-journo, now public servant. I think we creative types are often prone to issues of the mind. We seem to be plagued by self-doubt and the feeling that nothing is ever good enough, we could always have done better. Does that sound familiar? Hang in there hun, you can do this.

I hope our mate Sherie is going well in her new job today. First day jitters no doubt, but exciting as well. I hope you come back tonight and tell us about it Shez.

Shel honey - a hug to you. You've been supporting others so much you must need your hugs topped up by now. Here's a bunch lovely lady.

Waaaaayyyyynnnneeee! Where's our fella gone?

And hello and hi to everyone else - hope it's a good day for you.

Meanwhile, at chez Kaz, the garden is not progressing I'm afraid. Weather, holiday laziness and Christmas preparations are conspiring against me. Stuff needs to get done before other stuff can get done, and to be honest I'm not doing much at all. Ah well, there's always next week.

Love to all

Kaz

Hi Shelley,

I want to give you  a massive hug!!

Tears are so much needed in our healing so let it all out and then take a deep breath in and slowly out. Even thou your screen is all blurry from those tears your big heart is still reaching out to others. Well Shelley my hand is now reaching out to you take it so I can give you a big hug.

What is it your crying about, let us know so we can help you. CW is right your always giving so much wonderful advice to others and rarely ask for help, so now it is us who want to help you. I have only been here for a week but I would love to help if I can.

My thoughts are with you

Durras x

 

 

Kazzl
Blue Voices Member

Shel, we must have crossed posts - I've just read yours, and like Durras (hi Durras!) I'm reaching out for a hug, and to dry your tears.

What's up possum?

Oh Shelley Im so sorry you are feeling so down right now, I wish I could take it all away.
Thank you for your beautiful words. You really are a special person and you deserve to feel happy. 
Imagine the biggest hug in the world and you can cry on my shoulder.

Have you got a plan for your day? I bet if you decided to you could do 1 good thing for yourself today. 
What would be 1 thing that you think would make you feel nice? I dare you to do it.

Hey Kazzl,

Yes, sometimes stressful, sometimes fun. 
My mum told me when I first started having my anxiety and depression that its the smart and creative people who are more likely to be effected. Funny that I still tell people its something my mum said, sort of like I'm trying not to say that I'm either creative or smart for fear that someone might think me big headed.
Even when people tell me something I've done is great I find it hard to think something I've done is good enough.

I've been thinking about Sherie too, what a great day for her today. I hope she pops in later to let us know how she went.

I have a meeting later today with a client and I'm pretty nervous about that. I also got my tentative booking through for my trip to see my mum and I'm not brave enough to actually book it.

Guest_1055
Community Member

Oh what kind loving souls you all have, to give me so much love. And I indeed feel it. And I feel truly blessed now, it makes me want to cry more from thankfulness. 

Perhaps I am just feeling lonely and just needed to feel like I mattered to someone. And I now believe it because you all have shown me this truth. Now I will go and let it out more, just let the built up tears go and remember that you are hugging me.

Bye now precious and dear souls that you all are.

With more love

Shelley xxxxxxxx