why do they make it so logistically hard???

[MrsCam]

The section for posting re bipolar has disappeared so I am back in this forum.

have been struggling badly with the depressive side of my bipolar2 recently. Had a video link session with my counsellor yesterday who suggested I call my psychiatrist for a discussion re possibly adjusting my medication dose. Called his rooms  but no he cant discuss it with me on the phone I have to go in. I live 1500km from perth, its not that easy to just drop in. So I called PATS to find out if I would be eligible for assistance for the airfare, (which thank god I am  ) they just need a letter from the doctors office confirming my appointment. Had to beg with the doctors receptionist to email me that then I had to forward it to PATS with a request for what flight I want them to book me on...

Ive managed so far to do it all but far out, when all you want is for the world to end having to deal with this bureaucratic stuff is just a nightmare.. I was in tears on the phone and the receptionist at the psychs office just said "we cant help you till you come to perth. Call us back when you know when that will be" and hung up on me so Im really enthused about going in there on monday... and the books my psych told me to get I cant even understand what they on about so thats gonna go over real well when he finds out I havent done them. He is big on the whole noone can help me if Im not helping myself thing and Im pretty sure failing to do the workbooks will be considered me not helping myself...

so over it. Wanted to hurt myself this morning but Im too gutless to go through with it.

my hubby came home from work when I told him that but I wish he would go back cos he is not actually speaking to me and I had to cry and beg just to get a cuddle which made me feel pathetic. I understand he has had enough, so have I

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[MrsCam]

Thanks Geoff.

they didnt set up the treatment behind my back, just that my mum would fly over from victoria and stay in perth while im in here. She says its also to help my hubby cos he is going home so I wouldnt b having any visitors if she didnt come.

I have no choice but to travel several hours to appointments as there are no mental health services in Tom Price where I live.

my hubby did say the other day that he would look into transferring to a fly in fly out role so we would be able to live in our house in Perth. I hope that will happen as I really hate living in TP, we been there for 6 years and it is a small minded hell hole (I actually think alot worse about the place and some of the people there but as you say, we have to keep the language within the mods perameters lol)

Dont even know how I go about seeking the oppinion of another psych. Do I just ask the nurses or what?? Will call my gp (the only thing I would be sad to have out of my life if we did leave town) and see what he suggests

[MrsCam]

Thankyou mary

it seems that all my concerns and feelings are kind of being brushed aside with "you need to change and dbt will help you do that."

Lets hope they are right.

[White_Rose]

Dear Mrs Cam

First, what is DBT? How does it work? I don't think I have heard of it before. How do you feel about it? Does it sound like something that will help you? Sorry for all the questions, it's a new concept to me.

How are you feeling with your mom around? I must admit I would love to have my mom here but she died 15 years ago.

I hope you can return to Perth if this will help you. Your surroundings are so crucial in managing a mental illness so I hope this will work.  You will also have easier access to a psychiatrist or psychologist of your choice. Clearly the current psych has little regard for you as Geoff has said.

I am feeling down today and not sure why. Had an enjoyable afternoon yesterday and my daughter and family visited today. My son-in-law fixed all my lights which is fantastic. So why I should feel miserable I don't know. Feels like I could burst into tears at the drop of a hat.

Take care

Mary

[MrsCam]

Hi Mary,

It stands for dialectical behaviour therapy.

I am going to learn about mindfullness, which was this mornings topic, distress tolerance, interpersonal effectiveness,  emotional regulation and crisis planning.

this weeks group is like an intro to each topic then the program proper is a once a week for 12 weeks, both groups workshops and individual therapy. Not sure at this stage when or even if Im going to be doing that due to the logistics of getting here when I live so far away, tho Im hopingbI will be able to as I figure it can only benefit me to do the whole program. HopefullybI can get some assistance from PATS

My Mum is arriving on wednesday. Atleast that was the plan last I heard. I got upset and angry with my parents re a situation that occured in our family when I was younger and I told my hubby to tell them. Neither he nor I have heard from them since tho I think she probably will still come over, she will just be annoyed atme when she gets here for bringing the subject up.

I know I have to let go of all the hurtful stuff. Im just not really sure how to do that...

I hope you are feeling better today Mary

[MrsCam]

My hubby was keen to get a 2nd oppinion from another psych so he asked one of my nurses how we should go about doing that. Turns out it would be difficult or near impossible whilst I am an inpatient here. Will reasses with my gp when I get home. In the meantime I am going with the flow as best I can and trying to not show it to anyone when I am having difficult moments

[MrsCam]

So I was discharged from perth clinic today and I am sitting at the airport waiting to go home. My flightis boarding in about an hour and Im trying to keep myself together and psych myself up for actually getting on it. Really really dont want to go back to my life in Tom Price 😞

Pretty much figured out to just tell my psych and the nurses what they wanted to hear as whenever I tried to voice what I was truely feeling they would just give me a serve about how I just have to decide to change and how I have to be positive. It was so hard for me to get the courage to tell my nurse one morning that I had been crying in my room for mostof the previous 2 days and tho she was empathetic to and put a note in my file all I got from my doctor when I saw him in the nurses station the next day was a chuckle and a comment that its good that Im not so grumpy now. Then that night I mentioned to another nurse about crying lots and being unsure on how I should go about changing my personality problem and she said "its easy as, you just have to decide to change". Thats pretty much when I decided to just start saying what they wanted to hear.

if I can get the PATS assistance I will do the 12 week dbt program as I think I could benefit from some of that but otherwise I think Im pretty much done with that place.

 Anyway thats the latest on me. The wifi in the clinic was playing up so I couldnt keep up with everyones posts but I hope everyone in bb land is doing ok 🙂