dear Richo, I am just so sorry that 3/4 of my post just disappeared and has gone, as this is annoying for the respondent.
I just can't tell you how much I feel for what you have gone through and it was all caused by depression, a devil that inflicts so much soul destroying pain to the person who is suffering from it, and what it has caused you to do is just so devastating to an unbelievable level.
I want you to please accept my deepest sympathy, and this goes for all the other dear friends who have all replied, in which I want to include what Tony has said 'the black dog can take away your energy, your own hands can take away
your wisdom, your injuries can take away your pain free life but nothing
can take away your bravery with you all the way'. as this is such a lovely way to say how he feels and can I include the rest of us.
What you have had to endue must have been excruciating and it's by no means over, as you still have another operation to go through and possibly more, but it hasn't solved your depression which is still ongoing.
There takes a great deal of strength in all of this, which you may not see now or over the past, but how can you blame yourself, you can't, because depression has forced this upon you, nothing else, as there are many of us that have gone through terrible times, but that is not what this reply about, it's not about anyone else, only you.
This next operation must be so fearful, but what they are doing is to try and make it all better, and yes I can hear you say that you are so worried, and yes I can hear you say it won't work, but hey, if myself or anyone else here could be with you, we would try and stop these negative thoughts, we would hold your hand, because it doesn't matter what sex you are, that is of no concern, you need to feel as though there are people supporting you.
Please give us the chance in trying to help you with your depression, because now you can't be by yourself.
I want to wish you the very best. Geoff.
