Please help..
Im 29 years old and have been a very positive, confident happy person my entire life until 6 months ago when i had a breakdown.
Ive got a terminaly ill mum who has been battling cancer for 20 years. She is my best friend and has been my rock my whole life. She is one of the most strong minded and positive humans alive.
Ive always been a hard worker and so focused on my career however been made redundant twice in the last 2 years which has been a kick in the guts.
Ive been in a relationship with my husband for the past 4 years and we have been married 12 months.
I think my breakdown has been a build up of things over the many years that as boiled over. Initially i blamed it all on my husband saying i was not happy in our marriage
The last 6 months have been aweful. Ive been so sad nearly every day.. unmotivated to do anything and just simply dont care. Ive had a constant thought in my head that i dont love my husband anymore and should leave. There are no red flags with my husband. He is amaxing, caring, kind, supportive and will do anything for me. We have just found out we are 10wks pregnate. Ive always wanted kids and a family i just didnt expect to be feeling so confused and scared about life and our future. I dont feel connected to the baby at all and dont know even if i should be having it feeling like this.
Ive been getting counselling and seen a team at the hospital that have suggested meds. I have not got the script filled yet. They said i tick all boxes for clinical depression.
Im not happy in myself and i hate it. My smile and personslity use to light up a room and now im so disconnected from myself i dont know who i am.
Any support/ advice would b greatly appreciated.
