Where do I begin?

[Bluegirloz]

Hello, I'm new to the online community. I've been suffering depression & anxiety for the past two years since a relationship breakdown (10 years) I'm currently living with a friend she's been a great support but I'm very focused on helping her and her family but have no interest in doing something for me. On the outside I appear fine to others except those extremely close who know I'm not going that well. I've tried psychological help and medication which I don't feel have helped and would rather try to help myself with other options. So I'm just looking for some advice on where to start. I have times when I spiral into thoughts of panic about my future on a myriad of levels. I am not the person I once was and am not sure how or if I will be again. Today I drink,smoke,rarely socialise,little exercise. I previously was running marathons,gym junkie,social drinker & non smoker..so I thought I'd see if anyone might have some suggestions as to where I begin...thank you for reading

[white knight]

Hi bluegirl welcome

Latest research suggests that fighting depression delays your progress, that the cycle is best allowed to "run its course".

Slowly re-introduce things. Go to the gym for a short time or make a spontaneous decision like a hot air balloon ride. I do this myself not to "snap myself out of it" but to control my mind not let it control me.

Consider another psych. Get another diagnosis. I was diagnksed with adhd and bipolar 1 in 2003, then in 2009 diagnosed with bipolar 2, depression and dysthymia...meaning l took the wrong meds for 6 years.

Being on the right meds has changed my life forever. It has be ground breaking

Relaxation classes do work. Also learn muscle tensioning ecercises. They work also.

Tony WK

[Jugglin_Strugglin]

Hi

Welcome. BB is full of resources that may help you. I have found reading & posting on forums to be very therapeutic.

i can't help but think that you have hinted towards the things that may help you. In your 'previous life' you were happy, and you enjoyed exercise and socialising. Can you find motivation to start exercising again. You don't have to run marathons, but easing back into exercise could be a start for you to regain your life. Maybe deep down, we all know the best way to start helping ourselves, but depression can make it soo hard to take the first step.

Lee!