Hi Joe911
Nothing quite compares to the feeling like you're slipping back into a depression. From personal experience, it can definitely feel fearful. If we've experienced the absolute depths, it's really fearful. I feel for you so much as you face wondering why this seems to be happening. Working it out can definitely be a challenge.
I'm wondering if you can relate to that conditioning we're often raised with 'Be grateful for what you've got'. But what if what you've got suddenly doesn't feel enough. What if it was enough at one point but now you need to really feel a difference. What if the sameness is depressing. So, you may begin to wonder what the difference is that you really need. Some folk may make suggestions when it comes to feeling a difference but they can be suggestions that really don't inspire or excite us
- Someone suggests 'Join a gym' but you're left thinking 'I don't want to go to the hassle of leaving the house into some big room to exercise with strangers. Someone suggests 'Hang gliding'. Now, that would be different
- Someone suggests you should be more grateful, which can leave you thinking 'I am grateful but I need to feel more than grateful. I need to feel more physical emotion in my life'. Someone else suggests 'Take what you're grateful for and actively reform it in new ways'. Have it evolve
- Someone suggests 'Maybe you need to have a bit of a fling', which can leave you thinking, 'No, I can't do that, I'm committed to the person I love'. Someone else may suggest considering raising the level of energy and excitement in your relationship, taking it to a whole new level of experimentation and emotion. Something definitely different
If we can't necessarily pick why we're vibing low, sometimes the challenge simply involves making a difference.
If you're exhausted, that may be a whole other story. Wondering 'Why am I exhausted?' is definitely something worth wondering about. Making sure our chemistry is in good condition (iron, b12 etc) is important. Also, we maintain and raise our energy levels in a variety of ways; through food, effective hydration, through sensory stimulation/excitement, restorative sleep and so on. Not refueling well can leave us feeling like a flat unemotional human battery, with little charge left in us. Being 'in charge' can have more than one meaning. Being aware of who or what is exhausting our energy is important too. We naturally thrive on things and people raising our energy levels, not draining them.
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