Before I start please know I am not attempting to romanticise mental illness, however, I am a rather melodramatic and passionate person...
I have been doing some exposure therapy in regards to my agoraphobia and social anxiety. It is going quite well. However this morning on my walk I was suddenly and seemingly out of nowhere, overcome with a wave of depression. I was emotionally, mentally and physically drained and felt deep despair. I closed my eyes and in desperation, pleaded for help. When I opened my eyes the first thing I saw was the bottle of water in my hands, and I suddenly became grateful that I had it. I took a few sips and made my way back home. Because I was sweating I decided to have a shower, and as the water hit my body I felt an overwhelming calmness and gratitude for the water. I really took the time to be present and experience the water covering my body. It was like some inner hippy in me was released. After the shower I got dressed I came in my room and randomly played some music, and it just so happened to be the song Water No Get Enemy by Fela Kuti which made me smile, as I appreciate those happy coincidences in life. I have had a real calm feel since then, inner peace and gratitude. Funny enough the last time I felt something like that was back when I lived down south and spent the day at the beach with my cousin.
