What to do?

[Kitty88]

Hi, I haven't wrote in a while but I'm struggling, so much has been happening and I've just been trying to keep the brave face but it's hard now....

My health is still crap I've been in and out of hospital all year for my heart and lungs. And now my 5year old has been told he most likely needs another operation on his kidney! I feel so defeated, I don't want him to suffer or to hate me for making him have it if he needs too!

The last few weeks I have drunk myself into a lot of debt over this and alot of things and now I don't know what to do... I have failed as a parent come next week I won't have no money... how could I let myself get to this? 

I'm a freaking failure! My son deserves better! I don't think I can do this anymore, he deserves way better then me... 

[indigo22]

Hi Kitty88,

Welcome back, I am sorry to hear things have gotten on top of you lately. Health and financial issues take a big toll on our mental health and it's easy to start feeling defeated when you are trying to deal with a number of things at once. But I think you are wrong about your son deserving better than his own mother. He needs you and would be devastated without you. So the thing to do is to get some help for yourself so that you can be there for him. It is very tempting to try to escape but that will not address the underlying problems, only mask them for a while. Have you been making use of the help lines? Have you been to visit your GP to get some help through this difficult time? You are not a failure, you are just overwhelmed and need some help at the moment. We all have been through times like that, you are not alone. There are financial counsellors you can access, without cost, who can help you get back on track. You have taken the first step in reaching out here, all you need to do now is have the courage to take the next steps to start easing your load. You can do this.

Sending you some extra strength to keep going,

indigo22

[Richju]

Hi Kitty88,

You are not a failure. You are someone who is dealing with a hell of a lot of problems all at once. I agree with indigo22. I'm sure a financial counsellor will be able to help you.

I'm sending a whole batch of the warmest hugs I have for you and your little fellow.

Please, please keep in touch and let us know how you are going.

Much love,

Richju xxxxxx