Unjustifiable Sadness

[Raf]

I'm a young teen and, like many others, I feel sad often. Every day I've been tired and felt disconnected or derealized from what I do. There's not much to look forward to or to be happy about in my life. During the most recent holidays I smoked weed almost every single night out of my bedroom window, and I've been vaping for two years. I feel sad, but there's not much of a reason to be. My parents are loving and make good money, I go to a decent school, I have lots of caring friends, and it makes me feel guilty for having this intermittent depressive state. My mum has clinical depression and yesterday I snuck one of her antidepressant pills, I woke up and felt so much better. My friend offered me a cone (weed) before school and I got way, way too high. I fainted in my first class and my mum picked me up. Honestly, it's pretty humerous, and I happily accepted the day off. Anyways, I'm sure others also feel this guilt for being sad, anxious and unproductive, for no particular reason, or no reason justifiably great enough to put me into the mood I've been feeling. 

[Croix]

Dear New Member~

I've given you a welcome and tried to answer both posts together (as I believe they are strongly linked)

That post is your other thread is at:

Self Harm for no Reason

Croix

[sbella02]

Hey again, I've just offered you a reply on your other thread, which Croix has also linked to. 

Weed isn't a great thing to get into long-term. It can feel like a great short-term problem solver, but it's not worth the problems that'll ensue later. In my experience, it'll only delay your suffering further, and perhaps enhance it or become a separate problem in itself. 

You can't help how you feel, even though you may be experiencing guilt. I had a great upbringing, but I still experience anxiety and depression on occasion. I'm going through a season of depression now, for various reasons. The solidity of your upbringing and network don't make your suffering any less valid, and it also doesn't make you any less deserving of support. You're always worthy of support.

Drawing upon social support might actually be one of the best steps you can take towards feeling better, if there's anyone around you who you'd feel comfortable opening up to. Perhaps your girlfriend, if she might be feeling similarly. 

Here's the link to your other thread, with more advice:

https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/depression/sh-for-no-reason/td-p/606915

SB