Dear New Member~
I'd like to welcome you here to the Support Forum. In welcoming you I'd like to say it applies to your other thread which you posted slightly before:
Unjustifiable Sadness
As I think there is a strong connection with the things you said there, one of them being
"I'm a young teen and, like many others, I feel sad often. Every day I've been tired and felt disconnected or derealized from what I do. There's not much to look forward to or to be happy about in my life."
You go on to say you come from a loving home, go to a good school, your folks have enough money and imply that should make you feel good -why should it?
Now you mention your GF self-harms and I guess that is the example you may be following, though you say yourself you could not understand why someone could do that. Now you are feeling the urge yourself, have actually harmed yourself and believe you have to hide the results.
Having a good home and love around you is great, however sometimes it can simply be irrelevant to how you feel. I had a good job, a good family and enough finances to be ok, it make no difference at all. In my case I had depression and at the time did not realise why.
As an aside using weed may 'step you out of things for a while' but long term results are unpredictable and normally not that helpful if not downright harmful. I suppose you could say the same about self harm. At the time - depending on why you do it - it can bring the world back, or be an escape with concentration elswhere while its happening.
I'm not a doctor and can't list all the reasons peple self-harm, though I would think often it is a coping mechanism.
While I'm sure many peple do feel guilty abut it and many more would be uncertain why they do it, it can be a hard habit to break once one does it more and more frequently. It is also dangerous, a simply slip can turn somthing one intends as minor into a major injury or even death.
I found I could not really understand what was happening and at the same time there was no way I could make myself feel better and not keep on having a need to cope.
If you don't mind me saying so (I'm not critisising) you have gone downs two paths, SH and weed, neither of which are going ot fix the original problem or problems. Like with me it takes someone outside with skill to unravel things.
So do you mind if I suggest the next step is for you to seek assistance? The easiest way to start is probably by contacting the Kids Help Line, either phone or text. They also have a counceling service if you need more than information. Using texts really does not give you enough time, so even though it might seem harder phoning gives more time to see what they recommend. They are understanding, don't judge, and are experts.
I"m not going ot go into techniques to avoid self harm when under s strong urge - I'll leave that to the experts, however I really would like to know how you get on.
Life can be a lot better than what you are going though now
Croix
