Hi Fran
First thing, even before I welcome you here is to say that "no-one" ever needs to apologise on this site; this site is for people to come and say exactly whatever it is that is troubling them and to vent and let fly as much as they like. No-one ever gets judged here - the thing that happens on this site is that amongst all the members who post here, we take in everybody who comes here. We take them in with electronic arms open wide and give them support, encouragement, care and as best as we can, we offer advice and guidance. It's a wonderful supportive "on-line" community.
And Fran, welcome to Beyond Blue and thank you for posting.
I'm sorry for the things have happened to you over the last period of time and it really feels like you're struggling.
I hope you don't mind if I can ask a few questions, just so myself and others will be better informed about some aspects of what's going on for you.
You've mentioned that you're on medications prescribed by your doctor and that he's nice (which is a huge bonus - stick with that doc Fran :). How long have you been on your meds for?
And are you feeling that the meds that you're on aren't making you feel any better? Have you been back to your doctor to discuss this?
Your hubby is bewildered, which doesn't surprise me ... I've suffered depression for all my adult life and I'm in my late 40's and it still puzzles me - this awful thing called depression. I think the most thing you can ask or hope from your hubby is that he's supportive of you.
It is good though that you're applying for jobs ... and please don't get down about that aspect - in that, if you keep applying and not getting any positive news about them. I'm not sure what field you're applying for, but I know in the area that I work, that jobs are very hard to come by and any application process is extremely competitive. It's just a matter of sticking with it and keep on trying.
You also said you were ill before Christmas ... have you managed to get over whatever that was? Is it just the depressive issues that are your main concerns right now?
Again, thank you for posting Fran and I hope that you can get back to us as soon as you feel ok to do so.
Kind regards
Neil
