Hello,
Welcome to the forums and thank you for reaching out to us.
I think this time of year can be difficult for some people. It seems to exaggerate any feelings of loneliness and can cause a setback with depression. Have you tried calling your friends for a get together for your 40th. Even something as simple as meeting at a restaurant for lunch or dinner. If you are already feeling low, it would be good for you to spend some time with at least a couple of friends if all can't make it.
Have you made use of any of the helplines? It does help to talk through things with someone who is unbiased and professional. They can often give you some advice on places in your area where you can reach out for support when you need it.
Social Media is a double edged sword, it can make you feel less disconnected but it can also be quite negative at times. Is there anything that you like to do as a hobby? Something that can get you out of your head for part of the day? I don't subscribe to the distract yourself entirely way of thinking but we all need some down time away from the repetitive thoughts and emotions when we are depressed.
For me it is playing a game on computer, spending some time doing work in the garden, reading a book.
What could it be for you?
Feel free to continue the conversation if you wish.
Take care,
indigo
