Hi Quilter57,
I am so glad you have returned to reach out to us.
I have been dealing with depression for many years also and I understand how debilitating it can get when you are in a low state. I am so glad to hear you are still clear enough to know to see your doctor and have your medication reviewed. The right medication can make a significant difference in how you feel on a daily basis.
Taking a step backwards is quite common when you have things weighing you down and it sounds like the situation with your DIL is a source of friction, not just with you and her but also with you and your husband. It does not surprise me that you are struggling at present. Do you have someone you are currently leaning on for support? A friend, a counsellor? If not, please consider making use of the helplines, it's why they are there, they may not help you in the long term, but they can make a significant difference to how you are feeling in the moment. Just having someone to talk openly with can help you through the more difficult moments and take some pressure off.
I know how hard it can be to stay on top of depression, even with medication, so try not to give yourself a hard time about it, instead look at it as a temporary setback that will eventually change again. In the meantime getting out in nature can make a difference to how you are feeling, it helps to get you out of your head and make you feel more grounded. Do you have somewhere nearby you can go for a walk in nature? A beach, forest, botanical garden or zoo? Or perhaps a water body where there are ducks and other wildlife? If not, spend some time in your garden and take in the sight of the plants and birds around you. I know this sounds way too simple, but it can make a difference when you do it regularly.
We will also be here to support you when you need us, just keep reaching out as you need to and you will get through this setback.
Take care,
indigo
