Struggling to be happy

[Jeskarae]

Guess I just need to vent and get some suggestions

i was recently in hospital for 4 weeks because of my mental health it is still unclear as to what is going on but I feel like I can’t deal with it and that I don’t want to be like this for the rest of my life, I was manic for about 2-3 and have now started to come down where I feel the complete opposite I just feel so depressed so ready to give up all I want is to feel happy and stay that way but it feels like this will never happen and I don’t know what to do or how to help myself. I feel like I’m such a burden on all my family and now that I’m home they only got 1 good week with me where I was an amazing mum and partner and now it’s back to feeling like shit all the time, be exhausted, being overwhelmed with everything and not getting enjoyment out of the stuff I should and it’s killing me. I know how much my moods effect the people around me and it’s not like I wouldn’t change them if I could. But as I don’t know what’s wrong I don’t know what to do if I’m on the right meds or anything. I just want help and answer and it feels like that is Never going to happen 😭

[Sophie_M]

Dear Jeskarae,

Welcome to the forums and thank you so much for so generously sharing an insight into your mental health journey with us here today. We know it's not easy but it's so important that you have. We want you to know you've come to a safe and non-judgmental place where users give and receive support based on their own experiences with mental health, many of which will have similarities to yours.

Please know help is always available to you. You can always reach out to the qualified mental health professionals at our support service 24/7 on 1300 22 4636 or our friends at Lifeline on 13 11 14 for crisis support.

Once again welcome and please check in and let us know how you're getting on whenever you feel up to it.

[P0L0]

Hi Jeskarae,

Welcome to the forums and congratulations on reaching out for advice!

I just want you to know that you are definitely not a burden on your family. From what I can tell, you have been able to raise your child/children and be a partner to your S.O. and they wouldn't be where they are now without you. You should know that the people around you care for you and want you to feel better.

Also, feeling better takes time and it takes dedication. Believe in yourself and you can do it.

And if you need anyone to talk to or if you need support, please get in touch with Beyond Blue Support Service on 1300 22 4636 or on Webchat 3pm-12am AEST at www.beyondblue.org.au/getsupport . There is also Lifeline on 13 11 14 or the Lifeline crisis chat 7pm - 12am at https://www.lifeline.org.au/crisis-chat/ .

You can get through this!

P0L0

[CalmCat]

Hi Jeskarae,

Thank you for such a open and vulnerable first post.

By sharing what you have, you may unknowingly assist someone else through their process. Keep working with your amazing mental health workers to get the best outcome for yourself. Mental health healing can take time, I know this first hand.

Stay strong and please connect with the resources listed below if need be.

Regards,

Doz

[Jeskarae]

Thank you i just feel so helpless and hopeless right now like their is no way up