Struggle to get out of Bed.....

Sparkles183 · ‎26-08-2015

Struggle to get out of bed.

Lately my depression and Anxiety has hitten rock bottom and I can bearly find the effort to get out of bed,even if it is just for a few moments to go to the loo or plug my phone in.

I no longer feel my medication is working and it is still hard for me to go and get the help I need.

I now am living in another state and I thought once I move things will start to get better but in fact they have got worse. Although I live with the fact that living here is the only way that I will get the help I need without family shouting in my ear with the stigma we grew up with that I don't need antidepressants and I have nothing to be depressed about. But I know it is real to me and I do have nothing to be depressed about. But I do live with depression a condition that does not discriminate.

I know I need help and in need it now... as I can not tolerate the unhelpful thoughts that go through my head at night they are like torture and I have never been so scared in my life.

but every time I go to get help I chicken out. I was going to go to a support group the other night but I got to front door and turned around I was going to make an appointment to go to a GP today but well at least I thought about it.

I guess being out of the house for more then two hours is just too much for me at the moment.... Although I do feel like staying in bed all day and know if I do go out of the house for more then two hours is exhausting I make sure I do try to make the effort every day to go out for an hour or two as I have found even just a little bit of sunshine helps my mood...

thanks for listening I guess my goal for the next week is to find a good GP in this city that bulks bills and understands mental health issues..

Sparkles

Guest_9466 · ‎13-09-2015

Dear Sparkles

I am sorry to hear that you went through some tough times. Just want you to know that I had been there, more times than I care to remember. Just know that you are with people who can relate to your circumstances and can empathised with you.

I am glad to hear that you treated yourself to a plant. Have you thought about getting a pet? When I am down, my pets comforted me. One of my dogs is quite demanding and so, it is hard for me to shut myself out, as it is unfair to them. So, inevitably, I have to take them for walks. Usually, the walk cheer both parties which is a good thing. Exercise helps me to relax and usually enable me to enjoy better quality sleep.

Hope it will do the same for you too.

Sparkles183 · ‎14-09-2015

Thanks Morning Glory.

it is nice to know I am not alone in these hard times. I do agree about pets but I am not allowed to have pets where I live and although I have considered getting myself a pet, bI know with pets come responsibility and they need to be looked after and as I travel a lot I will not be able to have a pet at the moment. But I do like going to the local pet stores to have a look and I also like walking pass the dog park to look at the dogs playing in the park. I have tried exercise and I do like to for a walk but at the moment it is not helping with my sleeping pattern.

Any way thank you for your reply.

take care

sparkles....

Doolhof · ‎15-09-2015

Hi Sparles,

I am wondering if you have a friend with a dog? My husband and I have "borrowed" a friend's dog to take on a walk. You get to have the company of the dog and can then give it back!

There might be an elderly person with a dog that would like to have someone walk their dog for them.

A pet shop might also be open to having someone handle their animals so they are more used to being with humans.

Just a few random thoughts!

Hope you are having a good day!

Cheers from Mrs. Dools