so lonley

[Guest_10205]

Hi i've suffered from depression my whole life,up and downs.At the moment my depression is really bad,I cry everyday.I don't have any friends.Iknow people say this and have friends but i dont.I've agorophobia for 28 yrs and only being able to leave my house the last few year with a support person.My 2 support persons i used to have have gone.The first support person left for personal reasons which she explained.The secong person just pulled the rug,things were great the day before,then i get a message that she has quit the company.We were really close having her home phone number and met her boyfriend abd been to her house.Iknow behind the scenes she was overcharging on support and i have an inkling this is why she left.Sounds strange but we were really close.She is no responding on Facebook,messanger,phone or text.My support workers are like my only friends,i see them 4 times a week and have done for a long time.I really don't have any friends to talk to,because i was agorophobic for 28 yrs i didn't get the chance to make any.

I just feel so lonley and disconnected, Iwish i had a friend to talk to and maybe go for a coffee.I can't leave the house without someone with me

[smallwolf]

Hello and welcome.

Thank you for sharing your story... that takes real strength. I'm sorry you're feeling this way. It sounds painful to lose not just support workers, but people who seemed like real friends.

You're not strange for feeling hurt or for wanting connection — we all need that. I've read a few books on this actual topic! 😞

Please keep reaching out, even if it’s just a little at a time. You matter, and you deserve care, respect, and friendship.

If you don't mind asking ... what kind of relationship/friendship are you hoping for? Someone to chat with day to day? Someone to check in once in a while, or even share hobbies or stories with? Would something like a pen pal interest you such as through email or messages? There are groups in Australia that do stuff in this space, but I cannot remember their name at the moment.

And would it feel helpful to keep talking here, just in replies like this?

Listening... (let me know what you think)

[Guest_10205]

hi thanks for your reply.i'd be interested in the books you've read on this subject if possible.I would maybe like Facebook friends so i chat with,i'm on there everyday playing Facebook games.Just getting it out and talking about it has helped a bit,so caught up in our own thoughts

[Guest_10205]

I wish there was someone close by who i could go out for coffee with sometime but i know these forums are somewhat anonomous