I find having Depression sux, because I know I'm not a normal person,
I've been living with Depression for 18 years and I miss being normal.
I've forgotten what it's like to be normal, now I have to fight to do
what I want to do or my Depression take...
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I find having Depression sux, because I know I'm not a normal person,
I've been living with Depression for 18 years and I miss being normal.
I've forgotten what it's like to be normal, now I have to fight to do
what I want to do or my Depression takes over and that's it I'm just a
zombie. I don't have a normal night sleep, my husband also has
depression and anxiety I have anxiety as well and we try to look after
each other. At the moment we both aren't coping due to a few
circumstances one of the being financial, but I'm really starting to
struggle with my Depression again. I want to get back into my hobbies
and start taking up new ones, I'm trying very hard to stay positive but
when your constantly worried about your husband well your mind is in
over drive and then I start to stress eat. My Depression is always
hanging around waiting for me to feel weak so it can let it self in,
it's hard to be strong and active as I've got two pro-lapsed discs in my
lower back and that's a everyday struggle in itself. I do keep a diary
but I forget to write in it. I just wish I never Major Depression and
Anxiety, its evil and it waits unit your weak and it then sneaks in then
your whole mood changes. Sometimes its hard to be positive all the time,
motivation is hard as well, I know one thing and I have to say this I
blame my father for this and that's all I will say on that matter. I do
listen to music, I do watch my tv shows but when I'm just not in the
mood to do anything i lay on my bed with my eyes closed and do nothing.
They say that ' try and go for a walk, or read a book or do something',
but it's not always easy. I do try and I do have my good days and I do
have my bad days. I am on medication and I take it everyday, I just wish
I didn't have this problem. I'm just frustrated with having depression
that's all.