so deeply depressed

[mara_d]

whoever reads this can sOMEONE PLS HELP:((( I'm drowning in so much sadness i don't even know what to do everything in my life is so bad my family troubles always become my own, I'm an only child so I'm so alone in everything that i have to go through, theres this uni course I've been trying to get into for 3 years and still unsuccessful, i hate my body and i have pcos as well so my hair is falling out i just wanna die, I'm so unmotivated for everything. what can i do to feel even remotely better

[Sophie_M]

Hi mara d

We are writing because your post has us concerned for your welfare. You have come to a safe and supportive community, who will be here to listen.

We would like to urge you to reach out to our Support Service on 1300 22 4636 (24/7), who can help provide support and let you know how to find services in your local area. You may also like to reach out to our friends at Lifeline on 13 11 14, and to speak to your GP about how you're feeling.

Keep reaching out, and let us know how you are when you feel up to it.

[White_Rose]

Dear Mara d

Welcome to the forum. As Sophie has said, this is a safe place to be. Sophie has also given you some suggestions to get immediate help and I urge you to at least make an appointment to see your GP. These doctors have a wealth of knowledge and will be able to help you.

In the meantime would you like to continue talking here? We like chatting to new people and helping them tell their stories. You have already told us a great deal in general and I wonder if you would like to add some specifics. For example, which uni course are you trying to get into? If you can get in what will this mean for you? Will it lead to your dream job or is it because you enjoy the subject? Sorry to keep asking questions. It's always a bit difficult when we do not know each very well and getting a picture is helpful.

A bit about me. I have four children and eight grandchildren. I completed my uni degree in my fifties, so it is never too late to learn something new. I like gardening but I am not doing much at the moment as I recently had surgery. I like to talk to people on BB because it is a two-way process. I get as much out of it as I hope you will.

Lots of friendly people here all wanting to help and support you. I expect there will be a couple of people along soon. In the meantime please keep yourself safe. Write in here as often as you wish or phone the BB helpline on 1300 22 4636 which is available 24/7.

I hope to hear from you soon.

Mary

[Doolhof]

Hi mara d,

Welcome to the community here. How can we help you? I have just had a couple of the worst weeks in my life dealing with my own emotional turmoil. I have struggles with allowing other people to help me, it has been so hard trying to deal with my depression on my own.

We don't need to do this on our own. No matter how awkward or how hard it feels, please try to reach out to someone for help.

What has helped me is to distract myself when the depression has been at its worst. I have read books and watched T.V. I have managed to do the dishes and shower each day. I have sat out in the sun.

I did manage to call the Beyondblue helpline and a lovely man was talking with me until I became too overwhelmed and hung up. People are there to help you.

People here do care, as do the people on the phone help lines. I would like to encourage you to reach out. Shutting yourself down does not help much at all. Believe me, I do that myself! It isn't effective.

Please let us know how you are getting on. It is tough. It does get better, I have just proved that for myself.

Wishing you encouragement to keep trying. Cheers from Dools

[Dyland93]

Hi Mara D,

it sounds like you're in alot of pain, whilst i cant directly relate to your circumstances i am going through a really rough time at the moment too, the only thing i can suggest is to see your GP and talk to people you love and trust about how you're feeling, its alot to keep to yourself and it just puts more pressure on, also another thing ive been trying to do is to not be so hard on myself, which it sounds like you're beating yourself up about things, take some positivity out of the things you're doing, be proud of yourself for being motivated to try and get into this uni course.

This is a great place to get things off your chest, we have a great community here and you most definitely aren't alone, try using some of the phone numbers people have suggested above too, you aren't alone. keep reaching out, hopefully i have helped you in some way, reply at your leisure,

Kind Regards,