Hi Ace
Although it may feel like it, you're definitely not an empty vessel. You're an amazing deeply feeling person trying so hard to feel your way through life. I'm so glad you've been able to gain a sense of connection with those around you who are also struggling with trying to feel their way through life and the challenges that come with it.
From a soulful perspective, there can be what feels soulful and what feels soul destroying and the fact that you have the ability to feel both of those elements points to how incredible you are. I think sometimes people tend to think 'What's wrong with me?' when they feel so much. I much prefer to consider 'Okay, seeing I'm a natural born feeler, what exactly am I feeling or sensing going on with me or around me?'. Something to consider is 'Me being able to feel or sense in the ways I do is not my fault, it points to my ability to feel/sense. I can either shut that ability (super power) down or learn to understand it and master it'.
I've found it often pays to make a connection with other 'sensitives' or 'feelers', people who can sense or feel in similar ways. This way you're not feeling everything on your own (feeling alone) or wondering if you're imagining things. It's like you could be thinking 'Does this teacher feel frustrating or is it just me?'. Another sensitive may say 'Absolutely, they feel frustrating. You're not wrong'. You could be thinking 'Is that person degrading, often bringing me down, or is it just me who feels this?'. Another sensitive could say '100%, I feel them degrading me and bringing me down every time I speak to them. I definitely feel that depressing down shift. You're not imagining it'. In other words, it's about learning to trust what we feel or learning to question what we're feeling with the help and support of others who can relate.
If we can feel or sense something depressing going on, chances are there's something depressing going on. It could relate to the way we see ourself (in the wrong ways), something in the environment we're in, certain people around us, a lack of soulful or inspiring connections, a depressing lack of energy (for some reason) or a whole range of other things. It's more empowering to imagine 'I can sense there's some depressing factor in play here' as opposed to believing 'There's something 'wrong' with me because I feel depressed'.
One of the biggest challenges a feeler or sensitive faces in this world today involves being a part of a generation that follows many generations of people who were taught to feel less or become more insensitive.
