Reposting after a long long break - Good & Bad news

[Bluedaze]

Hi there, thought I'd post again after a very long break.

I have good news and bad, 1st the bad. I'm still alive. Yes I know, drag.. bummer.. boring!.

Now the good. I have finally someone who deeply loves and cares for me (I can't imagine why). Unplanned, unexpected but very welcome. So in that, I finally have someone who will morn over me when I'm gone.

Thanks for reading. C-ya.

[blondguy]

Hey Bluedaze

Good on you for posting..you post is important to the forums as there are many people here that suffer from similar issues that you do

Ive had depression for 21 years now and take meds for it. I think life is wonderful...especially when there are so many people trying to stay alive through having an illness or disability.

If I may ask you Blue how long have you felt this way? It is a dark place to be in. I remember and understand where you are coming from

A good GP can also be a huge help for you now. A double appointment will provide you with some peace by having a really good vent

Im happy that you have someone that is there for you and cares so much. You are very lucky

you are not alone Bluedaze, and thanks for posting too 🙂

my kind thoughts........I really hope you can stick around the forums

Paul

[geoff]

hello Bluedaze, isn't it good that something has the power to overcome something bad that's been going on in your life, that's what everyone wishes, congratulations, and even more important it will give hope to those that believe they will never get better or will be able to see the light, a different life with someone new will certainly do this, or even a change of scenery, but it can also happen with a long term partner. Geoff.

[Bluedaze]

Thanks blondguy

I can remember being down & out from my teens. I'm 54 now. Never learnt much at school as I was too preoccupied with avoiding being beaten up. The depression has been with me from then to now but not because of that alone.

[Guest_1584]

hi blue d.

lts amazing isn't it ya think you'll outrun school days or bad times or pain in life but all these yrs later and they're still with us.

beautiful stuff that someones in your life now, all the best with it.

[White_Rose]

Hello Bluedaze

Welcome back. How long has it been? I don't think I 'talked' with you in the past but your name is familiar.

Goodness me, why is it bad news that you are still alive? Now that you have a loving partner in your life and one I presume you love, why would you not be happy to be alive?

Would you like to continue chatting here? I would like to know why you are miserable and perhaps we can support you.

Mary

[white knight]

Hi bluedaze, welcome back, I remember you

Id like to know about your new love. How exciting. At 54, it great to find someone.

Can you satisfy my curiosity about your new love?.

As for your feelings about living on, how about we chat about that? Ive been down the road to self destruction and its better to avoid it, particularly for your new lives sake. What do you reckon?

Tony WK

[blondguy]

Hey Bluedaze

Thankyou heaps for posting back and apologies for the delayed reply.

You and I are roughly the same age. I am 57 and still have scars from the bullying which I remember from my primary school years. It may sound silly but I am still on my guard where being bullied is concerned.

My depression still leaves me vulnerable to being bullied.

I dont know about you but I still have the roller coaster ride of depression happening

I have been heavily involved with dog rescue for 30 years and just doing my best to keep some balance in my life

The forums have and always be a judgemental free zone for so many that are experiencing depression/anxiety.

Your posts are just as important as mine or anyone else's on the forums Bluedaze. It would be good if you feel like saying hello.....on any subject you wish 🙂

My kind thoughts for you

Paul

[White_Rose]

Hello Blue

Can you clarify, 1st the bad. I'm still alive. I hope you were joking. Also, I finally have someone who will morn over me when I'm gone. You are with someone who you acknowledge cares deeply for you. Are you saying you will not live much longer? I really hope that's not the case. Can you please tell me what you are thinking about this. I am concerned but I may be misinterpreting your words.

Come back and talk to us some more.

Mary

[geoff]

hi Bluedaze, you form a r/ship, one that you thought could never happen, simply because you're not feeling well, depression controls you every moment of the day, so why would someone decide to take you on board and to start loving you, well it is possible as it's been done with you.
Why you and not the person next to you, why not someone who is wealthy and influential in the world, why you because you don't have anything good for you, why you there are no friends, your social group is nil, why you because your house/flat is a mess, why you because you can't be happy, I could go on couldn't I, but won't, I've said enough, except to say that how damn lucky you are.
You have someone who loves you and wants to care for you, doesn't that only happen when you rub the bottle and a genie appears, remember she's found you so why would you want her to feel the pain if something happened, I'm sure she would be devastated.
Let her take care of you, this can change how you look at life and let her groom you to be what you have been missing and wanting in life, an honest sincere person is like gold, it's everybody's dream. Geoff.