Hi, This is my first post, i have suffered with mental health issues for
many years and wanted to put some of it into words, and share it with
you.. Sometimes I wonder, if as a female, it is within our nature to
have poor self esteem and body image, ...
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Hi, This is my first post, i have suffered with mental health issues for
many years and wanted to put some of it into words, and share it with
you.. Sometimes I wonder, if as a female, it is within our nature to
have poor self esteem and body image, if we are genetically blessed, or
should I say cursed, with an over powering mind. A mind that allows us
to do some amazing and beautiful things, but at the same time causes us
to spiral around in circles. Over thinking, under thinking, over
analysing, always presuming that we know what is going on in other
people’s minds. What if this happens, then this happens, then they say
this then they think that? Is this the way I was born? Is this the way I
was brought up, are these ideas that I have taken from people around me,
from friends? Or have I slowly been brain washed, by the power of
technology, by television, by social media, by newspapers and magazines.
Has each and every day of my life slowly been grooming me to think this
way, to act this way. Does everyone think this way? Does everyone have
these same crazy thoughts that run through their head, and are some
people able to just let them wash by like a stream of water, whilst
others get stuck in the rip only to be pulled down deeper until someone
or something can drag them out. This is sometimes what it feels like,
that no matter what you do, no matter how hard you try, you always seem
to come back to that same beach. To wade out into the same patch of
water, beyond the red and yellow flags. You always seem to get stuck in
that same Rip. Each time to be dragged out by that same familiar face
and firm hand grip. Now you are safe again, your thoughts seem calm and
rational again, yet somehow when you are in the depths of that ocean,
you cannot seem to find your own way back to land. It’s a tricky thing
to manage and deal with mental health. Sometimes you can feel as though
you have the world at your fingertips, like you have everything under
control. And yet sometimes, this sense of control can be gone within an
instant, and you are left feeling small and powerless, with barely even
a warning. I guess what I have learnt is that although this still
happens, it becomes less frequent and each episode a little less
daunting. I guess knowing that you have experienced it all before, and
most likely to an even worse degree, it gives you the power to pull
through the other side quicker and more resiliently. Thank you for
reading this xo
How do I talk to my doctor?
