Ongoing battle - checking in

[Paul]

Hi everyone,

Over the past 4 months I've been going through a change in meds to try and kick depression being worse in the morning.

It's been a tough road and it feels like it's not going to get any easier. Along with almost continuous depression rollercoaster emotions and mornings still being bad, my anxiety is smacking me about as well. My moods aren't very good and I've been close to the bottom of the dark hole where I fear I will end up in hospital.

My memory is bad, which is humiliating at work and concentration is up and down. I haven't told my employer too much except that I'm having a tough time and my memory is affected. Other than that I really don't know what to tell them

I've got a psychiatrist and psychologist that I am seeing.

I'm feeling exhausted from the constant battle and roller coaster, living from moment to moment trying to keep my head above water.

I guess I needed to check in here to be reminded that I'm not alone.

Paul

[Deckt]

Hey brother!

You're not alone. 🙂 Med changes SUCK. Just remember that if you're feeling a little turbulent, that's to be expected, and it will pass.

Keep strong, mate.

Dt.

[Sophie_M]

Dear Paul,

Sorry to hear that things have been so difficult over the past few months. As Deckt said, rough patches and turbulence are part of the journey, but that sometimes doesn't make it any easier to have to go through. Since things are so tough, it makes sense that you are living moment to moment right now and a lot of the times that is the best we are able to do when we have to exist in such circumstances, and that takes a lot of strength and spirit to do.

It's good to hear that you are seeing a psychiatrist and psychologist. If you are feeling like you are in a particularly dark place, please feel free to give us a ring on our helpline or on our webchat as well.

[EJ07]

Hi Paul,

This is my first time posting in this forum, but some of the things you mentioned really resonated with me.

Not knowing if it will get better, the fear of how things could end and the exhaustion of keeping yourself afloat. I too feel the pressure of my workplace not truely understanding what I’m going through.

You wanted to know you were not alone, so here I am telling you that you’re really not.
I truly hope that this challenging period of medication changes stabilises soon and you feel more in control!

What do you do to manage during these times? Have you got any good distraction or coping techniques? I’d love to know.

Here’s hoping you’re already feeling better!

EJ