Up until almost 3 weeks ago life for me was normal. I was going to work and doing my usual daily things despite whats going on with covid 19. I considered myself lucky and should be grateful i still have a job.
Then i fell down stairs, broke my foot and tore 2 ligaments.
I thought that after a week or 2 id be fine and back to work, easy as! But no! Im now sitting here in so much pain with a cam boot on and requiring crutches. I havent been able to work for the past 3 weeks and the dr said ill need at least another 2 weeks off. Ill start physio next week which im dreading due to the pain.
The last couple days i feel like whats happened and what will happen is finally sinking in and really starting to stress me out. I cant work, i cant drive, my university degree may need to be put on hold if im not fit for placements, im lucky im also on austudy otherwise id be ruined financially right now, im scared that this injury will affect my career. Im so over it!
The fact that work hasnt been too kind about it also makes it a whole lot worse. The coworkers i thought i was close with enough to call friends havent even checked in on me. Even my own friends have been a bit absent in checking in.
All the people who were complaining about being in lockdown while i was thinking theyre lucky they get to stay home and be lazy while i was out there working as a registered nurse caring for the elderly. I now know their frustration of having to stay home! I now know how being home almost 24/7 makes your mental health decline, how the uncertainty of your circumstances can affect your mental health in such a short period of time.
If i could, i would straight away make an appointment with my psychologist to talk and cry over everything that happened to me in the past few weeks but thats not possible for me right now not only due to my inability to get anywhere but also because it costs to much. So im putting my little rant here.
I know things will find a way to work themselves out, i always try to see the positives on the worst circumstances. There was a reason i had this injury and the timing of it, im almost glad it happened when it did and not in the middle on a placement for my degree later in the year...
