Not sure what’s wrong with me.

[Jaysquizzle]

I’m 30 years old. I’ve been feeling weird and depressed since I was a little boy. I’ve never been able to make friends. I have a few who live far away from me, but I am so lonely in the small town I moved to for work. I cant talk to someone unless they talk to me first, and even then I can’t look them in the eye. I have no social skills. I’ve never been interested in drinking or going to pubs, I feel too anxious in crowds. I don’t have many hobbies and have always worked myself hard at work since age 17. The men who work for me are in their sixties, so we have nothing in common.

I cling to women and constantly feel petrified of being left alone. My current partner has cheated on me with three different men and I let her get away with it because I can not bare to come home to an empty house and then spend years alone here with my own thoughts.

[blondguy]

Hello Jaysquizzle

Welcome to the forums and good on you for having the courage to post too!

I understand you Jays as I was always a super lonely and anxious person during childhood and teens. I am still anxious in crowds and have been dealing with anxiety and depression and working for a long time now..ugh!

Whether or not its basic self esteem issues you are not alone feeling this way Jays. I started to see more of my GP for some counseling and it worked well. Can I ask you if you have a GP that you can be open with? I remember always feeling better after making a double appointment....They do deal a lot with people that find some facets of life difficult.

The forums here are a great start for you as we take your privacy and well being seriously here Jays. There is also no judgement here too...just heaps of the best support we can give you 🙂

I have heard excellent reports about the gentle counselors on the Mens Helpline1300 789 978. If you want a voice on voice call these people are really nice

I am so sorry about your partner Jays. This is the last thing you need happening in your life

I really do hope you can be a part of the forums Jays. There are many gentle people that can be here for you too!

My kind thoughts

Paul