Not moving from my bed, major depressive disorder

[Anonymous03]

I woke up this morning and didn’t want to get up. I spent the whole day sleeping and starring at the wall wasting the day away. I feel this intense feeling of pain constantly that consumes me and I feel like I can’t move. I told myself it was going to get up but I just didn’t, I dont know why.
I have so many goals but am failing in all of them it’s not that I don’t have them it’s that they just seem unattainable (school success etc) I’m so behind in school I want to do so extremely well but I don’t have the energy or motivation to get stuff done. I hate how I haven’t left my bed all day yet I feel like it’s the only place I can be. I want to be left alone and no one to come, but at the same time I want people here with me to show that they care as much as I know they do because I don’t want to feel like this anymore. I don’t want to spend days lying in bed feeling like I’m not actually living. I tried getting in contact with a psychologist finally after getting a referral from my GP but she hasn’t responded, my GP, did a call as I couldn’t see her in person and it wasn’t a help at all which was a waste of money for my parents to pay for a 5min call of her telling me to take more breaks during school days at home and the fact I didn’t actually get anything to help. My parents don’t understand how I’m feeling, all I told them was I was unwell because really I didn’t know what to say and as much as they try to help they don’t. I just don’t know what to do at this point because I feel like it’s getting worse. It’s almost like I have to remind them I have depression and I don’t even like to say it. My friends are the best people ever but I have the fact I’m sad all the time now and that I have to tell them that I’m struggling because I feel like there is no one else to tell.

[Sophie_M]

Hi Anonymous03,

Thanks for reaching out tonight. We understand it can be hard to reach out for support, but we are so glad that you have. It sounds like you’ve been feeling very overwhelmed with these intense feelings, and we are so sorry to hear that you’re in such a tough space right now.

We are so sorry to hear that your GP wasn't helpful and that you don't feel you want to talk more to your parents about how you're feeling. It's important that you do get some support. Some organisations for young people like yourself include:

. Headspace - https://headspace.org.au/
. Kids Helpline - 1800 55 1800 or https://kidshelpline.com.au/ (webchat is available)

Please know that you’re not alone in this and that our community is here to work through this with you. We are sure that many people in the community reading this can relate and hopefully some of them have some words of wisdom or words of kindness that may help. We also want to let you know that we are checking in with you via email.
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