Hello Black Kat
I think when are feeling miserable we want something to cheer us up, something different like eating chocolate. Buying anything in this state of mind is the perfect answer until the bill arrives. I have been prone to doing this in the past and still have my days.
I try to subvert it into buying activities such as grocery shopping so I can kid myself I am getting useful stuff. This is pretty true but I do buy items I cannot use or eat and this makes me cross afterwards. The need does go after a while as I am sure you know, but at what cost. I find I am being more strict these days and really questioning why I want to buy a particular item. It even works quite well much to my amazement.
Depression does all sorts of things to us including the above. I suspect my impulse buying has decreased more because my depression is in recession than because I have more control. However it is nice to feel virtuous when I walk out of the shop.
Have asked anyone for help? Not sure how long you have felt this way or if it has happened in the past because you do sound very down. May I suggest a GP visit if you are not receiving therapy. It can really help.
Perhaps you can talk a little more about what is troubling you.
Mary
