No real friends to talk to in person re how i feel

[Hmm]

Hi

Struggling with emotions on my own...

Every single moment if I'm not distracted is a battle inside me. Worse lately, noticeably, constantly working on every second to not feel shit in every moment.

Super annoying on buses (the crying).

Exhausted.

[White_Rose]

Dear Hmm

A warm welcome to the forum. So pleased you found your way here where we can offer you support. I want to ask you a couple of questions if I may. When you talk about the battle inside you can you explain what is happening? Are you remembering unhappy occasions or times when you have harmed? I see you constantly feel bad and find it hard to distract yourself. I know how difficult that can be as I have been there also. Not a good place.

Do you see a counsellor, psychologist, psychiatrist or talk to your GP? It is important that you have professional help when you are feeling so down. You may be already doing this so please excuse me. If not, do you think you can make an appointment with your GP? I think it may help you to talk to someone who can help in a tangible way. I can appreciate how uncomfortable it must be when you start crying in a public place. I remember a few years ago bursting into tears in my office with about 15 people stopping their work and wonder what to do.

It is hard work to try to keep your emotions in check which is why I suggest getting some professional help. A place to let go of your feelings for a while and work out what is happening in your life. Do you have any idea why you feel this way? OK I am not a psychologist or doctor but I have seen enough of these hard working people to have learned a few things.

I will keep this post short as I do not know much about your circumstances and I don't want to upset you by talking about things that are not relevant.

I hope you will write in again soon and perhaps tell us more about yourself.

Mary

[MsPurple]

Hi Hmm and welcome to the beyond blue forums.

It is really good to have you here. It is a good place to talk to people in a similar situation to you for advice. It is also a good place to vent and get some support. We often try give ideas and suggestions like white rose has given. Although the forums are helpful, as we are peers and normal people (like yourself) we still advise seeing a professional. I use the forums to get support as well especially between seeing my psychologist. And sometimes to just chat 🙂

I am glad you have opened up and joined the forums. Sometimes just discussing your fears can be the first step into getting help

[geoff]

Hello Hmm, please let me welcome you to the forums.

It's so sad to hear how you are feeling because that's what depression (of any kind) does to us, but it's not necessarily what's happening on the outside, although sometimes it is, so we can't disregard any of this, but that we have too high expectations that don't come true, they hit a wall and when this we fall.

The distraction can only last for how long you can let it, because once you have one negative thought that comes to mind then that's when your emotions will open, and there is nothing wrong with that, you can't hold it in.

I won't repeat what has been said already, but please know that you have made friends here who want to talk with you.

Best wishes.

Geoff.

[Darwin777]

Hi Hmm

I feel very similar. The few sincere friends in my life could not understand the overwhelming feelings of anxiety and hopelessness. Also, I am loathe to burden them with what goes on in my head. Not having someone to share the thoughts with though makes the pressure build up in my head. Sometimes, to the point where I imagine my head will implode. This sounds amusing as I write it but it's never funny when I'm in the think of it.

I agree, exhausted is the right word for it.