New here but long time sufferer

[HilfMir]

Hi all.
I’ve been in and out of depression for 23yrs. On and off meds in and out of Drs. The last 10yrs I have had a handle on the depression being able to pull myself out without meds. I’ve had anxiety for 4yrs now and that’s what’s getting to me the most and making my depression worse.
today was the day, I went to see my gp and had a full mental breakdown, I’ve never broken like that before, I’ve been prescribed meds again.
I dont know if I’m here for advice, to talk, or just put my thoughts out into the void where I won’t be judged or told to “get over it”.
im in the darkest place I have ever been, and with the heartache and trauma of my life since I was young that (to me) says so much and scares the living hell out of me.
so here I am. Thanks for accepting me into the community. if I’m not talkative in threads, please forgive me. I’m falling apart like a piece of wet cake.

[Sophie_M]

Hey HilfMir,

We are so sorry to hear about what you're going through, it sounds like it has been a really overwhelming time for you. We acknowledge that it takes a lot of courage and strength to reach out for support, and we are so glad that you have done so here today. Please know that our community is here to work through this difficult time with you. We also want to let you know that we are checking in with you via email. Keep checking back in and let us know how you are going when you feel up to it.

[Shansav]

Hi HilfMir,

I'm in that same place came on here today to seek advice and help because of being in darkest place I have ever been. As I read your post I'm thinking that is me and where I'm at.

Thank you I was struggling with the words to explain

Let's get some lights turned on in this SHITHOLE !!!!

[Shansav]

Hi HilfMir,

Mate i hope you are doing well.

Im such a airhead i have been in the dark hole now for a few weeks have left work temp even. Just cant focus.

As i have been having a breakdown this morning and are now finally getting out,away from it .

i realized that i have not been using this as a tool to help. derrrrrr!!!

i need someone to talk to hope we can help each other out.