Hi Budzy922
Welcome to the forums and thankyou for having the strength to post!
I remember losing track of the days when I first had acute anxiety and called a few people so I could pack up and move to a new city....It never really happened. I had trouble leaving my house and then contacted the local council and they sent out a mental health worker...I didnt know (and didnt care) that he was a psychiatric nurse
He nagged me to see him every week for six months and he helped me 'escape' from my house.
The marijuana is neither here or there ( not really cool for clarity though) but if I can ask you why you have put off your doc for so many times? I used to cringe at the thought of seeing my GP/therapist but now get along well with him after he also saved me from my anxiety.
I can feel you are in a world of hurt right now Budzy. There are many kind people here on the forums that can be here to support you without judgement. Just support.
Do you have any friends (support network) that you can lean on right now?
I hope you can get back to us...It would be great to hear from you.
My kindest thoughts
Paul
