My third last post too...

[Jaibigrone907]

My parent's, I consider them so dumb. Their not realistic, they have given up on their kid's, they don't normalise us to have a future, or be active and live life. They cause argumentative issues for me, social countertransference's. My father is selfish, and his pathetic, but keeps to himself, behind the T.V.. His a useless tyrant parent. He contributed against my creativity, since 2009. I love my Mother absolutely, but my Dad's careless, and self centred.

I have no work direction. I am 29 now, and I have no suitable work direction, or any great opportunities. I don't want entry job's, like retail, sales, factory, hospitality. I don't want to work a construction, do a apprenticeship, traineeship, any TAFE certificates either. I don't have any University careers I'm interested in. I am not a study person, and I don't have a Year 12 VCE and a ideal ATAR too.I never wanted to do construction, any apprenticeships, or traineeships, and I knew that, even when I was a 8 year old, it's not my breed of masculinity, and I don't like their tradie personality, values, and character. The government also only encourages the courses, that most don't want to do. If they offer any free ones, their only for the shitter qualifications, that no one wants. I never had my driving too, and we had just one vehicle at home, that only my mother was using, and that car was nearly too screwed to drive back then, and not worth spending money on it's frequent maintenance repairs, that my father was barely affording. My mother couldn't guarantee, if she could take me to any job's, the cost of petrol, and wither she needs to use the car, if my brother needed it too. I never had a resume written and solid help with that.

[Croix]

Dear Jaibigrone907~

Rather than saying there is no point perhaps there is a point - that you know and believe in yourself. A good starting point with which to try to gently ease others into a different impression of you.

Cultures are different, and many in Australia do have an atheist or agnostic view, however that should not mean they do not respect the religions of others and jump to clinical conclusions wihtout first thinking the matter over.

I'd have thoght being compared to those like Elijah, Jeremiah, Moses or Isaiah, being a disciple is comparing you to those many people hold in deep regard, even if not always in their own day.

I did not know they made a game about Elliot Roger -it sounds terrible. I've no idea why they should want to show it to you.

Do you mind if I asked why your mother contacted the GP? I'm sure it could have been out of concern for you, however there may have been some things you did or said she did not understand or disturbed her.

Croix

[Jaibigrone907]

I can tell you, about my spirituality, it's quite in-depth.

I don't want any of it, but I can't control what society is doing, since it's not a mental illness.

I have random people connecting through, telling me anything, and I have to receive their emotions, and differences, they talk to me directly, or about me. I even had one random guy, who I could hear, He was saying if he would maybe bash me. It can also be celebrities and their music that's put in my mind, it's too diverse.

I can see pictures alter with detail, and it's not believed, unless anyone could be able to experience it. I notice how thing's appear, or how the picture changes in general.

It can be player names, in video games, and how their reflecting about me, mostly with my Psychiatry situation. I can even show you a picture, of the first player name, why would anyone be named like this, and how it's correlated to my situation, and it's not superstitious, it's real. 

The most annoying thing I have with my spirituality. I a Psychologist. She is always laughing about me, talking against my intelligence, telling me that I'm different, because she only accepts herself. She tells me that she regards higher values, and she's trying to use vanity, and tell me about economics. She does money hand gestures, to symbolise to me, how it's about the money. She puts her fingers close together, and tries to bully me, when she's judging my intelligence. She tells me how I'm American. If she sais wither I'm Whiter, or about being White. If I'm Western or European, or about being like the Japanese. She can't handle if she's told, about that anything's her Marxist, when I say it isn't mine, or when she tells me about University, when it's not something I want to do. She is trying to domineer her own bias norms, she's basically applying her values to me. I have the awareness, where she's saying she's selfish, or if others say it to her, or if she sais she couldn't give a shit. I see her crying, when she has the moments, where she knows I'm genuine and better. She otherwise gets over angered, and generically tries to say if I'm a Supremacist, about Racism or Fascism. She has no emotional intelligence, and the rest of the time, She sais wither I'm authentic, or when thing's are true, if I'm humble, pure, friendlier, better. She sais wither she contributed to society, if I'm useless.

She's been bullying me everyday. She's connected through me all day, So I can't actively think, and try to commit to my day, or write any notes.

[Croix]

Dear Jaibigrone907~

It is very difficult to see and hear changes you cannot point out to others. If it is any comfort there are communities of people that 'hear voices' and they manage well, even those those voices are personal to them. They do not regard thier condition as an illness, just the way they are.

I'm not a doctor and have no way to pass any sort of comment on this other than I believe there are these communities. If it bears any relation to you seeing things change I've no idea, maybe I'm drawing a false parallel.

What I'd be more certain about is that your account of your psychologist indicates you do no have the best relationship as  she has different views that in no way take your personal experiences into account.

A more open approach might suit you better.

Croix