Hey There,
Thank you for your bravery and openness in sharing here. It sounds like you’re going through a really difficult time and feeling lonely and isolated, especially on your birthday. We can hear your situation is really having an impact on how you’re feeling day-to-day.
We’re sorry to hear you cannot talk through these feelings of suicide with a friend – that must feel incredibly isolating. It sounds like you could really do with a discussion with someone who is able to be a supportive. We’re reaching out to you privately and have sent you an email to check you’re ok. In the meantime, we’d really encourage you to give our counsellors a call on the Beyond Blue Support Service. We are available 24/7 by phone on 1300 22 4636, and the team are really good at talking people through moments like this and working out options for more support.
If you’re feeling suicidal or are having thoughts about harming yourself, it's important that you take immediate steps to keep safe. If you feel unable to keep yourself from acting on your thoughts about suicide or self-harm this is an emergency, and you need to call 000 (triple zero).
It also sounds like the Beyond Now suicide safety planning app may be a helpful resource to you. You can read about how it works and where to download it here:
https://www.lifeline.org.au/get-help/beyond-now/create-your-beyond-now-suicide-safety-plan-online/ You can even call Lifeline on 13 11 14 and compete it together with one of their counsellors over the phone.
We hope that you find our forums to be a safe and supportive space to talk through your thoughts and feelings. Our community is here for you, and we’re sure they’ll spot your post soon enough and have some kind words and understanding for you.
Kind regards,
Sophie M
