My actions and my desires are at odds.

[Zanthus]

I live in a busy house hold 4 adults and 4 children my sisters.

I've been needing help of some sort for as long as I can remember

At the moment I'm deep in negative momentum and am finding it impossible to try the things that worked in the past

I don't understand why I am avoiding things I like and make me feel better

My actions and my desires seem far far away from each other

[Katyonthehamsterwheel]

Hi there

Depression is difficult like that, as it often dulls our motivation. May I ask if you have been diagnosed or seen anyone in a professional sense about your mental health before? You say you need help, but not where you are on your journey. Is there harmony in your household? Do people know you are struggling and can they/do they support you? So many questions, which you might not be up to answering. But it would be great to know a little more and maybe we can make some suggestions on "where to" from here.

Hope to chat more. Katy

[geoff]

Hello Zanthus, and a warm welcome to the site.

Living in a busy household can make your situation become awkward, only because whatever you may want to say maybe not what others agree with, and if this continually happens then it's not going to improve how you feel.

If you are feeling as though everything is making you feel negative, then you may need to step aside and talk with your doctor, simply because we can't overcome these feelings as we become locked into them and we aren't able to think about anything positive.

When we avoid doing what we used to love to do, means you may require help from those not associated from within the household, and please remember it's not your fault, but different circumstances can cause this to happen.

We'd like to hear more from you when you're available.

Take care.

Geoff.

[Zanthus]

I was first diagnosed with adhd in primary school later that was changed to asbergers.

After mum left when I was 13 home life has been supportive and safe but thier always something more important at the moment my Nices are dealing with thier own mh issues as a result of bad stuff happening to them

I'm felling betterish after reading another thread but feelings are hard too.