Mine site depression

[Edurna]

Hi, I have never done anything like this before, but decided to reach out because I am really struggling right now. I am currently doing vacation work on a mine site, and saying it has been hard is an understatement. I have never felt so alone than I do here, where I feel like I cannot talk to anyone (especially as there are not many females like myself around). My parents keep saying, just do it for the money, only 2 more shifts here left, but I have been crying every night, and even typing this makes me feel quite emotional. I do not enjoy it here, going underground made me claustrophobic, but they are sending me down again today, and I am honestly terrified. The work is brain numbing, leaving me with my own thoughts (which are not great right now). A family member is sick back home, and its hard been separated so far away. I cannot seem to find the courage to smile here, but I do plaster on fake ones. I just do not know what to do 😞 Everyone here says it isn't that bad here, and I do agree, but it hasn't stopped me from going this rabbit hole of constantly wanting to go home and crying.

[geoff]

Hello Edurna, thanks for posting your comment and do understand that being a female and working underground would not be very pleasant at all.

Just doing this for the money sounds to be easy for other people who aren't actually doing it, but when it's you and only vacational work then it can bring out your deep feelings, which appears to be happening, especially when you feel claustrophobic.

You may put on a fake smile, but that doesn't really help you because deep down in are suffering and certainly won't allow you to feel any better.

As this is only voctional work I'm sure you would be entitled to ask the boss if you are allowed to go home because of your family sickness, I can't see any problem in doing this.

Geoff.

Life Member.

[Edurna]

I would, but as this is my university internship, I am obligated to finish the work as I get graded by my supervisor here 😞