Long term battle

Struggletown
Blue Voices Member
Blue Voices Member

I have battled depression for as long as I can remember. I have tried many antidepressants that have had no effect.2years ago ,out of desperation my girlfriend had me admitted to hospital.i saw a few physiatrists and the only real answer I got was more antidepressants.Last year I became worse,overwhelming negative thoughts,never a day that I'm not angry or depressed so I had a mental health team visit me.they have diagnosed me with dysthymia and have told me that my only solution is cognitive therapy and there is no magic pill.Ihave finally taken myself off antidepressants which was the hardest thing I've ever had too do.I have had lots of sessions with a phycoligist but I don't really see any improvement in my condition. I am at a point now where I had to quit my job as I just can't face the day and have lost my relationship as I'm just unbearable to be around..Is there any solution to this misery I call life 

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JessF
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Hello Struggletown, how much communication are you having with your psychologist and doctor?  I am concerned when you say you have taken *yourself* off antidepressants - this is never a good idea and should always be done in consultation with your doctor because the rebound effects of coming off suddenly can make your situation worse. 

With the therapy, change does take time but if you don't feel any improvement it is important that you have that concversation with your psychologist. There are many different approaches that can be tried.

Can you tell us a little bit more about what has been going on in your life? You talk about negative thoughts for many years, do you have any sense of where this is cominig from?

Neil_1
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Hi struggletown

The mental health team were right in a way – in that, yes there is no magic pill that can be taken.  But anti-depressants are out there for a good reason – that they do impact on how you’re feeling as long as you’ve got the right ones prescribed to you.  You see there’s so many available now – I am surprised that your treating GP didn’t work with you more closely on trying to find the right possible medication.

It also sounds like you kind of weaned yourself off your meds – without any professional intervention by a GP – and if that was the case, then yes I can fully see just how difficult that would have been to do.  Generally NOT a good thing to do by yourself.

I would seriously think about going back to your GP to try a different brand of meds – or if you’re not overly happy with your current GP, on this site, Beyond Blue have listed a number of GP’s that you can run a search for – to hopefully find one or more in your local area.  These GP’s are all fully qualified in being able to deal with mental health issues and as such from that, they would be best equipped to refer you to an appropriate psych and also, be able to advise you what medication might be best suited to you.

I hope this helped out a little – although I guess I was just expanding a bit on your own post.

I do hope to hear from you again

Neil

Struggletown
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Thank you for the replys, I have weaned off the medication in conjunction with my doc and phycoligist and mental health team,I'm def not on my own there. Have been without meds for a month or so and know exactly what your saying  about feeling worse initially but I guess I've just plateau out to a standard low mood now.I had my own business as a truck driver and spent up to 20hrs a day working and felt this was a huge impact on my condition.For the longest time my phycoligist told me until I change my career and my life I will never get better, I guess I just was scared to quit as I have huge financial commitment etc.Well I have now done that and have my house for sale and exercising/swimming daily,doing everything to change who I am and what I do but I still feel the same.Im not really interested in trying any other antidepressants and it's well established after 10 years and many combinations they are little benefit to me.i am open to anything really I might look into this Russian healing. 

Hi Struggletown

You are right about medication.  So often antidepressants don't do much for sufferers.  It didn't help me much even after trying different brands.  

Change of circumstance does make a difference as is in your case.  You no longer drive a truck and worked long hours.  It is a good positive step. 

Sometimes our mental health condition is caused by traumatic life experience.  It might help to look back and come to terms with our past and treat the cause, with the help of medical professionals of course.  

I am interested to know about this Russian healing.  Hope you are still around and will post again.  Please take care.

Struggler