life still sucks

[zaynixey]

hey,

i am really struggling right now,

it's so hard to explain to make it understandable.

i guess the hardest things just keep happening to me.

like first,

i had to make the hardest decision of putting down my baby boy (cat) almost 2 years ago. one of the hardest things ever. basically, since then, my mental health got worse and worse.

my dad was involved in a car accident several months after, and nearly lost him.

he's alive and doing well now, but stuff really went down for my family since that day.

about a few weeks after he arrived back home (so roughly under a month after his accident) we had to put his cat down, after a sudden heart failure accrued. 

a few months later, his dog died. we knew she wasn't well and the hardest thing was, we couldn't support that. 

then i was having a hard time with my boyfriend, as he was manipulative, controlling, and just so many other things that made it harder. he was my first relationship (primary school personally, doesn't count) he would try change me to become what his needs were like...

1. becoming christian

2. change my personality

and there's so much around this i don't need to get into. 

but we hate him, we hate the whole situation!

anyway, let's just move onto the present.

my mum's dog has be diagnosed with a disease, and we have to make a decision.

my ex and i have been in another situationship.

ive been distant from my best friend because..

1. my mental health is really bad

2. shes not the same

3. im js starting to see her differently (don't know how/why)

im overwhelmed with school.

im overwhelmed with dance.

im struggling to feel put.

i dont have a job.

i dont have money.

i dont have a licence.

i dont have a clear head.

i dont stick to any routine.

but i really need one.

im so lost.

im so tired.

i want it to end.

but ive lost so much hope.

(im so sorry for the huge as yap)

[Sunflower23]

Hey Zaynixey,

Just want to say I’m so sorry you’re going through all this!

You matter.

You are loved and enough. 

Thank you for being here.

Thinking of you and sending love your way. 

[Djordat]

Hello Zaynixey,

I thought I would contact you and have a chat!

To start,

always maintain your strengths, You and your life Matter!

You matter to me, and to everyone, but most importantly to you!

I hope, and wish your Dad is Okay, and getting better, after such a thing happens!

I feel, so terribly, for the loss of your fury loved ones, I can feel your pain, as I to have experience much loss also, and because I have seen how things happen; New fiends of all kinds wait to meet us!

I also wish I could give an answer, for your mums Dog! I

just make sure they know they are loved!

In every place we go, there are eyes watching, willing to make new friends and lasting loving relationships with us, not just people!

We can never, and would never, forget all we have known or loved! But we move on, as we must!

To be strong is easier than we think! We must make a stand for who We are first, and don't change anything, only adjust, to fit! 

Family! Any family, is also very, very important, to have people who care about us, also gives us strength, in the comfort of knowing we are wanted and loved!

Sometimes, with all things, especially when it's all happening, we need to step out at some stage, to just recharge our resolve, and to take stock of the situation, the lasting effect on us, and family, especially, were We are at, with it!

Or it gets too hard to juggle it all at once, set some rules for your self! List out a list of wants, you know, were you would like to be later in life, and now! Setting Goals sounds unless, but it really works when getting control of our life and helping others with theirs!

You seem like you might have a few Goals, Time never stops, so always best to organise before things get beyond us!

It's easy for me to suggest ideas, that may be of help, but really only you can sort how to approach it, and organise the best approach, for each issue!

Always remember, That you matter, a lot, and you will pull it together, because you are strong and capable, Life lies before you, loaded with responsibility and choices!

And you have tons of life to go!

You Take care and be Safe, my thoughts are with you! Djordatt!