I feel like a failure

[Sunflower23]

I feel like a failure because I should have my life figured out by now but I don’t. I feel like I’m failing uni because I’m so behind everyone in my cohort and not sure if I’ll even complete my degree because my confidence has been shaken and my life tipped outside down.

I feel like I’ve taken a step backwards in not being able to get out of bed or do grocery shopping or get out of the house. I cancelled two appointments with my psych due to experiencing depression and not being able to leave the house on those days and now I’m back on the waitlist. I regret my decision to cancel now.

In this moment I don’t feel like I will experience joy again. I feel so isolated and alone.

I don’t feel like anyone truely understands what I’m going through and how difficult it is to keep on going.

I find it hard to confide in others because I feel like a burden. I tend to mask how I truely feel around others because it’s easier to say “I’m ok”rather than be honest and say that “I’m not ok”. To this end I’ve been avoiding seeing people which is not the norm for me even though I know it would be good that I do… i just find it really hard to explain how I’m going and have small talk.

I’d love to hear from anyone who has experienced anything similar so that I feel less alone. 🫶

[Isme1234]

Hi there Sunflower 

you definitely seem to be having a hard time right now and I’m sure you hear it from everybody but life will actually get better.

I have been down your road.still on it to a lesser degree now.

i am an introvert and suffer from social phobia.

I am wondering do you enjoy the course you are doing at uni?

is it what you expected?

i personally find a bit of deep breathing helps and escaping to a happy place in my mind helps.

It may not seem like it now but i promise you that you are well loved and cared for 

your dr is definitely your best bet in the beginning to help you cope 

and talking does help I’m sure there will be someone in your friend group who will happily sit and listen .

im just someone else who came here for advice and the volunteers definitely seem to be very helpful 

one foot in front of the other as they say and you have already started 

I wish you the happiness I know you deserve and you will get 

[Patricia000]

I'm not great with words, nor do I have any helpful advice, but I just want to know that I am rooting for you and hope things get better soon. ❤️ It's an awful feeling - I'm having my own uni problems at the moment too so know how much it sucks, but I'll be cheering you on in the back of my mind during exams, Sunflower. 🙂

[Nath666]

Sunflower, hang in there you are not alone. You are here. Defer uni if you can, don't be so hard on yourself.

Things will get better.

Love,

Nathan