Dear Chris, I feel for you. I can hear your pain. You are at a very low point in your life. I wish I could say some words to make things better but they would only be words and words will not make your life better at this time. I could say something like this is as bad as it gets and things could only get better but that would serve no purpose at all. All we are left with Chris is to try and say something inspirational but I,m going to be blunt the only person that can help you is yourself Chris. You might be in the grips of the black dog at the moment but I would argue that you are starting to fight the dog.
you are coming on here and opening up, this is about the third step. The first is realising there is a problem the second is reaching out for help and the third is opening up. You have chosen to open up on this forum Chris to people that care for and respect you. Well done.
now what can be done about your situation? I'm sorry, but I would submit that the world is your oyster. I was born in a troubled part of the world, I took the first opportunity to get out of the place. I ended up in what I regarded to be paradise ( Australia) but I still developed major depression with psychosis. I now see this as my challenge, to overcome the overcomeable. I was lucky I made it out the other end and now I want to throw a line to people that are in the same situation I was in five years ago.
the way I see it you can open up on this forum or find a good counsellor and do it with them in privacy. It,s your choice.
I am unemployed Chris, I was sacked because I have a mental illness, discrimination laws are all bs. The way I,m looking at it I,m lucky I have a supportive wife to see me through this tough time, but I know that I will come back stronger and better than ever and I would ask you to search deep inside yourself and find your inner strength. We cannot see the stars unless it,s really dark. I know you can be strong and stand tall. Good luck Chris, Stephen.
