Just tired of trying so hard

[Meow31]

I’ve tried hard for my entire life. I’ve been honest, working hard, nice to everyone. It did not get me anywhere. I am still trying. Hard. For what? I do not know. I will live to keep my cats and dogs safe and happy. When they are gone, is it Ok if I stop trying? I’m so tired.

[therising]

A warm welcome to you Meow31

How beautiful this world would be if everyone we met was as honest, hard working and as nice as you. The world is just that little bit more beautiful because you are in it. It doesn't seem fair, how hard it has to be for the beautiful people who are desperate for others to be more sensitive.

It can definitely become depressing when it comes to how insensitive people can be, hey. When you can meet one after the other throughout your life, it can leave you thinking 'What's wrong with me? Why do I feel so much?' Then you can come here and suddenly find the kind of sensitive people you've been searching for. There are such beautiful deeply caring and deeply feeling people on the forums here who can relate to what the world can be like at times and how dark things can get. I'm so glad you came here. I hope we've managed to bring you a little bit of light.

Feel completely free to be yourself, Meow. Voice anything you wish to voice. Be you, no matter how that feels right now.

🙂

[Chunty]

Hi Meow, I reallyy like your name. It is so cute. I guess thats because I simply adore cats and kittens. You still battling? Lifes pretty tough is,nt? You have to be so careful who you can trust. But you are able to pick up the vibes or energys people put out. Im pretty much on me own, just love my cat. She,s absolutely beautiful, and has got heaps of character. Tell you what they give out lots of uncondional love. She,s naughty but thats cool, I still love her. Anyway take care Meow Meow and drop us a line if you want to. Dont give up on youself though, remember you must look after yourself. All the best. Chunty

[jtjt_4862]

Hi Meow,

I understand how you feel, and I'm really sorry you feel this way. It really sucks when you try so hard, giving it all you've got, pouring your heart and soul into steering your life. Only for life to knock you back onto the same path before. You keep trying and trying, but it slowly chips your strength away to the point that life feels like it's on repeat, and you start to question what even is the point of trying. I'm glad you were able to find this forum and start a post on it. I'm always here for you to listen if you want to have a chat. Be strong, Meow!

Jt

[Gonetroppo]

I understand the tiredness. Depression can be exhausting. It takes a lot of strength to keep moving in the face of this exhaustion and think a lot of us - including you - deserve a lot of credit for persevering.

[Chunty]

Hello Meow Meow, I repeat I love your name as I identify it with the love of kitty kats which I simply adore them as well. The Darlings are non judgemental, faithful and give lots of unconditional love. I dont trust humans much now.I have got one faithful priest who puts up with me and I still communicate with my ex boyfriend in Brisbane who adores cats and has a few of his own.Then Ive got my Darling pussycat Merryweather. I have recommencd a medication that is helping me sleep better and help me cope with BPD as well. Im very unhappy and am living in fear where my carer is concerned. One Catholic priest from Port Lincoln as totally rejected me when I was begging for help in a crisis. I apologised and begged his forgiveness because I was in desperation texting him in the middle of the night. Ive learnt my lesson, I dont do it to anyone anymore. So Meow Meow, just stick with your little Darling Kittys and pray and ask Jesus to send you one or two humans who will accept you forcwhat you are. Ii have learnt that there few tolerant humans in this earth. Some of them have got ulterior motives. Its unbelievable. Just stick to Jesus and your Kittys and you cant go wrong. You have to protect yourself because there are vipers around. God Bless You Chunty xx🐱😊

[Chunty]

Hello, Its me again. I have re iterate. You are a lovely person. I can sense it and i care for you.

Just rest, be with your Kittys and trust Jesus. He is always there for you. Chunty xx