It feels too hard to do anything

[sparkvark]

Everything seems stressful at the moment. Getting out of bed, buying groceries, preparing food, doing dishes, being at work, looking at anything factual, going to bed... Any time I have to expend any effort, it's like a giant wave of "please no, I can't".

I haven't been getting enough sleep thanks to the effort of going to bed, but I have been doing some exercise tied in with going to/from work. Right now I should be making dinner with the groceries that it took me 2 days to go out and get, but it feels impossible even though the kitchen is just a few metres away.

I'm not sure if this is a depression or anxiety thing or what. I just really need to get a handle on it. It's not worth going to the GP and getting a psych referral, because I've heard that all before and know what I need to be doing but it's just too hard right now.

[QldMouse]

Hi Spark,

As you have noticed, a lot of us who hang out here feel the same. Oh boy did your thread title hit a nerve with me, I have days like that and it feels terrible.

First, cut yourself some slack and be gentle with yourself. How are those voices in your head going? Mine need sorting out constantly, they need to be told to be kind and gentle, and have some respect for tough days.

It is great that you got out with friends and you feel better, that sure works for me to. I am now setting myself goals around getting out where people are, having coffee with people, etc.

I suffer from several issues we will lump as social anxiety to compliment my depression, so I wonder why you left early. Just curious, I tend to bolt at the first chance so I wonder.

Lastly can I add my warmest welcome to you, it is nice to meet another like minded online friend.

[sparkvark]

Hi QLDMouse, sorry I never replied. If you happen to read this - how have you been going with your goals to hang out with people recently?

I'm still in this same stupid stuck spot. I remembered I had a thread like this and just dug it up to try and convince myself that I need to try harder to get past this. It's a wonder that no one has said anything at work because it seems pretty obvious that I'm not very good at staying on task. My thoughts and feelings keep distracting me, particularly when I'm trying to do things that are unengaging and tedious. I need to figure out a way to get my motivation back.