all alone

[shagz]

Hi. Just popped onto the web chat but they must be busy.

I have no one to talk to. Sorry guys. I have had a bad GP apointment today. I just want someone to know I'm here. I'm fighting. I'm really sick today and its just difficult on your own sometimes.

I may be unwanted, discarded, up against more than I can handle alone but I'm still here for now and I just want someone to know I'm doing my best.

Really sorry about wasting time on here. Sure there's more important threads than this

[topsy_]

Hi Shagz,

I'm still up if you're still there & would like to talk/vent.

Lyn.

[topsy_]

Hello again,

I'm off to bed now although I'm really not sleepy. I hope you might be sleeping peacefully too.

Just remember your safety plan. I know it is really tough right now but you will get better. I promise. It takes time & work but it does get better.

Thinking of you, Lyn.

[shagz]

Hi Lyn. I really needed to know someone out there cared that I'm doing my best in the worst circumstances.

I live very isolated. Only people I see are gp's psychs social workers paramedics chemists and police. Its just nice to hear from a 'real' person if you can somehow understand.

especially after a day like today.

​Thanks for your kind reply.

[geoff]

hi Shagz, welcome to the site and it's good to talk with you, but when you aren't feeling happy after a doctor's appointment then something must have been said that you weren't ready to hear, or didn't want to know about, then it makes you feel uncomfortable, and perhaps saddens you or makes you anxious.
You don't have to feel alone because there is always someone on the site at any hour of the day or night.
When you are by yourself then it does feel as though you're lonely without any support, but that's not what we want you to feel like, because you do need support and someone to converse with, even if you post your comment then someone will come along and then respond back to you.
This may not happen instantly as posts have to be checked by the Moderators first, just to make sure that what is said is suitable and above board.
If you want to tell us about your day we would love to hear backfrom you, however you only have to mention whatever you want to. Geoff.

[Just Sara]

Chin up Shagz;

Welcome to our community of caring people. Just so you know ok? We do care..

There's always someone here to purge to or ask questions of. It sounds like you've had quite a time of it.

If you need us, just post. Tell your story, join others, or reach out to help someone. The choice is yours..our forum is the place for inclusion and participation..or to just read.

Hope you're doing better...Dizzy 🙂

[shagz]

Hi Geoff. Thanks for your kind words. I read your post a while ago but unable to post back until now.

Sometimes being alone with mental health issues can be hard as you may know.

I don't want to talk about the Dr. ​yet its to much.

Just thought I'd say thanks Geoff.

[Doolhof]

HI Shagz,

I too welcome you to the community here. Depression can be an isolating illness even when you are in a room full of people!

Like others have mentioned, you only need to tell us you have had a horrible day, you don't need to go into details unless you feel like you need to let it all out.

Have you tried writing out how you feel on paper, then rip the paper up. I find that beneficial at times.

Do you have hobbies or interests that you enjoy doing? I know that when I have a bad day I do find it difficult to involve myself in things I enjoy doing.

Gardening has been wonderful for me lately. I seem to relax and feel alive in the garden. We have thousands of weeds to pull up! Great therapy for me.

Please don't think that your thread is any less important than any one else's. Each thread, each post is special.

You mentioned you don't see many people apart from those helping with your mental health. Are there support groups in your region where you could go an d chat with people?

Is it possible for you to find some volunteer work or would that be too difficult for you?

There is no need to answer these questions and comments if you don't want to.

Share what you feel comfortable doing.

You might also like to check out some of the threads in the Social Zone, they are light hearted and a good place to just drop by and say "Goodaye" or join in some of the game threads.

Cheers for now from Mrs. Dools

[shagz]

Hi Dizzy.

Thanks for the welcome and advice.

Its nice to know I can come here and post because it helps at times. I have read a lot since returning to BB.

Part of my safety plan is to come here and help others but sometimes I guess I need help too.​

Thanks, I will keep my chinup for now.​

[geoff]

hi Shagz, thanks for getting back to us, but you don't need to apologise,I would never except anybody to have to do this, because there are times when people don't feel like getting back to us, that's OK we understand how you feel.
I live by myself with my puppie and I know exactly what you are saying, but perhaps you could read some other posts just to make you feel more comfortable, as it's just as hard to reply to people as it is to post your comment, it's not easy at all.
There is no time limit on when you reply to someone, where some people don't want to, well we have to accept that, but it's always great to hear back from the person, even if it's to say thank you.
Once again you are not compelled to mention what happened with your doctor, we leave that up to you whether or not you want to talk about it, but if you aren't ready then there is no blame what so ever.
It takes time to gain your confidence and we certainly appreciate this. Geoff.