Isolating myself

[Frangipani]

Such a struggle at the moment to talk about my feelings, it's so much easier to pretend to be ok.

I have struggled with depression/anxiety for so long now, the main reason due to not being able to have a child

I feel so angry at myself for getting so bad, watching friendships slip away, not being closer to family and not living my life to the fullest, the last few years feel like a blur 😞

It feels at the time so much easier to avoid certain situations/people but in the long run u r left even more isolated from how u feel, this whole thing has hurt me inside and out, I just wish the old me could come back 😞

Just needed to vent and someone to listen

[Frangipani]

Yes I feel empty, exactly how I feel

we did go to a workshop on adoption/fostering but my husband isn't on board with the idea

[Fairywings]

Oh hunny i'm so sorry to hear this. you have a beautiful little angel who is with you and hubby all the time i'm sure of it his presence is always with you guys. I know he is with you in spirit write to him talk to him did you end up naming you beautiful angel baby? My moon babies are Lucas, Marcus, Zoe & Lia. Thankyou for being such a beautiful soul. Everything I have been through has only made me stronger I know its hard to see but in time over time it does. I am now 36years old. I carried my babies until about 26 weeks yeah sooooo. 😞 life goes on I miss them everyday too and your 100% right its a void that can never be replaced, but they are always there with me at night keeping me up as they do night time in their eyes is playtime lol. We are all going to help you get through this. big hugs to you sweet heart xx

[Guest_1055]

Hi dear Frangipani

I was thinking of you, and wondering if a plant based diet might help you and your hubby in regards to fertility issues. I know this idea does sound far fetched to some. But if you are really keen, what have you got to lose. If you haven't done any research on this, well I encourage you to. There our plenty of doctors who have recommended this natural approach.

Also please don't feel pressured to reply to me, be free there. All cool! I just wanted to share this info, just in case you or your hubby hadn't thought of it, and because I care about you.

Take care now

Shell xx