Isolated-cold-lonely and depressed.

[Guest_4987]

As i live in an isolated regional area with all the cold weather with my depression i am finding life very hard at the moment. I am not new to BB but have not posted for some months but find myself needed help as I am sliding into a dark place which i seem to carry with me…

With not that much support available in my area at night i decided to reactivate contact on these forums as it was helpful then so why not now. STS

[Guest_4987]

Hi Narelle, Thanks for the reply I agree this is a great site the the ones that use it are so nice i also like posting hear.

The pic is of Lucy my number one companion and hot water bottle at the moment.

I'm glad the weather has been a bit warmer of late for you in Adelaide it has been warmer here in the Riverina NSW for the last two days…happy days!

Are you a cat person Narelle? Whats your cats name and do you have other animals.

Hope to chat again

Waynexx

[Guest_5218]

Hi there Wayne. Hope you've had a couple of better days?

Thanks for your contribution to the pet thread too. If you have a look there, you will meet Narelle's cat Buddy.

I hope that ewe and her 4 lambs are all doing well.

Ha ha, I understand about Lucy being a water bottle. Holly is also useful as a bed warmer for me. She burrows under the doona when she thinks its bedtime, which is usually before I am ready. So she curls up in bed and waits. She generates a fair bit of heat, so the beds warm by the time I crawl in. ha ha ..

Glad to hear that the Riverina weather has improved somewhat over the past couple of days. Bad weather does tend to get you down in the dumps a bit doesnt it. We had a frost here 2 nights ago, the first in about 2 years I think. But the day afterwards was sunny and lovely. Then today it was mild, overcast and drizzly.

Are you still doing most of the work on the house yourself? What is the next step for you?

Sherie xx

[Guest_4987]

Hi Sherie

Been a tough couple of days for me, so many things to be done and no drive to do em..so tomorrow will the day to get myself motivated again so I can move forward.

Mum ewe with the quads lost one but the other 3 are doing good, these cold and windy days as you know take a toll on the young lambs.

With the house Sherie i need to finish off the ceiling battens then line the interior, kitchen, bathroom, wiring, plumbing and two decks. WOW think'n about it i better get on with it.

Waynexx

[Guest_4987]

HI Shell

Hope my post finds you well, I'm trying hard to keep it all together! You know I must find the way past my dark side I really don't want to define myself in this negative way so no matter how difficult it is i think i really need to take a honest view of my thoughts and make positive change and forget the negative.

Waynexx

[Guest_4987]

Hi Narelle, Starting to rain here at the moment which is not a good thing for me at present usually i welcome some rain as i live on a farm. I'm glad there's others about at this time i don't feel so isolated. x

[Kazzl]

Morning Wayne - hope you have a better day today mate.

Kaz

[Guest_5218]

Morning Wayne. Gosh, still so much to do on the house! Of course there is only so much you can do on your own, and with the farm to run as well.

Did you end up getting much rain last night? Hopefully not, as you didnt want the rain right now. Is that because of your house building activities, or because of it being lambing time?

Wayne have you ever considered doing an on-line depression/anxiety course? For example a mindfulness course or something like that? I believe there are some good options out there, and it could be worthwhile for you. I cant remember if you are on medication or whether you have been seeing a psychologist in the past. If not, is it worth trying now?

In the meantime, keep talking to us here. Please give cute little Lucy a big hug from me. And one to you also.

Sherie xx

[Guest_5218]

Hi Wayne, I didnt catch what time you posted to the Cafe about being back in 1.5hrs. But I think that will be somewhere between 7pm and 7.30pm. So I will check back here around then. Its just on 6pm now, and I also have a few things I need to do before then.

Just post when you get back and I will come back in and check later. Perhaps you can start be telling me why today was such a bad day for you?

Talk soon.

Sherie xx

[Guest_5218]

Hey Wayne, sorry you didnt make it back in tonight. Its now about 10.45pm and I am heading off to bed, as I didnt get much sleep last night, and am now really tired. Cant wait up any longer to see if you turn up.

So if you do come in tonight - sorry I missed you. I expect there will be others here who you can talk to anyway.

Maybe I will catch up with you tomorrow sometime. I hope things improve for you soon.

In case you need it - I give you a comforting hug and Lucy a gentle scratch behind the ear. Take care.

Sherie xx

[Guest_4987]

Hi Sherie, Really sorry i let you down last night by not looking back on to BB i hope that staying up so late waiting didn't hinder you in any way. Last night was a real bummer for me and a couple of my ewes the poor girls were having trouble lambing so one needed to catch them and pull there beautiful little lambs. As i'am still boiling water for a shower and i was so cold after chasing down the girls i decided(needed) to go to town and have a big hot shower. I bumped a friend in town who knows that i do it a bit tough some times and he invited me around for a warm drink. Yesterday was the pits Sherie i was at my wits end with no possible way out of my deep,black hole but you know earlier in the day i was reading a few posts about mindfulness and got a little inspired to give it ago.

You asked in an earlier post if i was on ant meds for my depression, i haven't taken my prescribed meds for 6 months or so as they really have bad side effects ( maybe i should see the dock and try something different?)

Back to mindfulness I'm a little excited! i have known many people who practice it and they seem to do really well, but i must admit i do get a bit confused exactly how to practise it so i could do some research.

Today Sherie has been a little more bearable and at least i can see that there is a way forward (don't really know how or when) but hey i'll just keep trying.

Wayne xx