Immense Irritation

Draven_J · ‎22-12-2020

I am 25 Years Old, Trying STILL!!! To Get my Driver's License, but I have been Miss Diagnosed with Schizophrenia at 19, I am constantly having Driving Suspensions on my Permit, and Enforced to have Mental Reviews and Reports to VIC ROAD's Every 6 Month's. I may be Restricted with my License If I Achieve One Soon Hopefully against my wishes also

I don't have Direction for any Entry Job Suitable Pathways, besides RETAIL, and I don't even want a Career Ideally In that or maybe I do, I wouldn't want to do Warehouse and Hospitality Isn't for me either, The Rest of the Entry Job Industries aren't Ideal for me, and without a Bachelor Degree or Diploma's there's Limited Choice

I am only Interested In Nutrition or Song Writing, but Not entirely sure If that would be suitable for me, and being 25* without having had a Prior Job Payed History, Only 11 Month's of Volunteer In a RETAIL Role that I don't Ideally want

I don't even know entirely If I can handle a Bachelor Degree, with my Academic Capacity, I haven't done Year 12 VCE, I did Foundation VCAL, and I had my Personal Issues during 2012 - 2014 or something* Which Lead to that Miss Diagnoses* I mentioned above, even a Advanced Diploma or Regular Diploma would be a Shock, even a Cert IV would take Adjusting, as I'm not overly Interested In 98% of the Standard Academic Educational Curriculum, wither University or TAFE

I've had a Dream to be Creative, but I don't have the Self Confidence to Pursue that with Society, and I never felt free to be Creatively Experimental at Home, Despite not having Issues at all otherwise

Oldmum · ‎22-12-2020

Hi, I see you've had no replies yet and I wanted to offer support. I'm new to the forums and not sure how much help I can be with your specific circumstances of misdiagnosis with schizophrenia, but just want to say hi and sorry for the tough times you're going through.

I do empathise with you though as I struggled to follow my dream of being creative. Are you able to find a school that is more creative focused, rather than academic? I did that and I found it was a much more supportive environment, rather than so much focus on academics.

I then found confidence to go on to do a graphic design course, and as everyone there had similar interests it was a really fun and supportive time of my life.

I wish you luck and hope someone with more experience comes along to reply to you soon

Truc · ‎23-12-2020

Hi Draven
I want to be honest with you that i am 24 and about your age, those thoughts about career also haunted me for a very long time, but I finally figured them out, about Prior Job Payed History, trust me, you are not the only one, I have friends and even myself had been over protective by our parents, we do not even know how to behave accordingly to society without not yet talking about job, sometimes I laughed at myself about that without any judgment, you are better than me that you reached out, at that time I did not dare so, i was that timid. however, I want to put it aside how I got the right choice for my career, because career is not everything in life, instead of that, I just wanna focus on your mental condition now which is much more important, Are you okay ? Are you feeling well ? If you are not and you feel stuck somehow about your life and nobody can talk with you. I wont lie to you in this that I am Vietnamese, I do not have any qualification for being a psychologist or anything, you can feel free and see me as a friend to talk through with you, there is no judgments here, we may sometimes just miscommunicate and that is normal in life, but i know we have something in common, similar age, then we can talk through a lot I suppose.

Draven_J · ‎27-12-2020

My Mental Health Is Completely Fine, but I have to take antipsyhchotic medication every Night, due to my Miss Diagnoses, It's not Just that, because I contracted Pre Diabetes Type-2, and I don't know If the Medications have affected my Brain with Size Volume and Grey Matter

Also In relation to my

(DRIVING In Relation to my MENTAL HEALTH DIAGNOSIS )

I am enforced Medical Report Reviews - Every 6 Month's, Constant Permit Suspensions If I don't comply, also maybe Potential License Restrictions, Enforced O.T. Un needed Assessments, I had to change my O.T. Who wasn't Positive and virtually telling me to possibly give up on my Driving Pursuits, Despite my Medication being continuously Reduced and having my Psychiatrist and Local GP Doctor's All Clear to Continue

( WOMEN & FRIENDS )

No Women Experiences at 25 - Can't expand Net Work with Friends and Women/Dating without the Value and Worth of Working and Studying

( Lack of Respect and Miss Internalized )

Always Labeled, Undermined, Corrected and
Not Respected for my Beliefs or Views and Values, or diss regarded as Useless for not Working or too Dumb or Special to have a Opinion

And this next one really bothers me
( TOXIC MASCULINITY )
So bothering to me, Masculinity has always been greatly Imperfect with treating Women fairly, but I see so much evidence of Masculine Sexism and Masogny and General Virginity Shaming and Slut Shaming and Pinning Men as Men or Homosexual or Transgenders

For me besides 11 Month's of Volunteer, I have never had a Payed Job, I can't enter UNIVERSITY without a Year 12 VCE, and I only completed a Year 12 Foundation VCAL, I don't entirely want to Study Nutrition at TAFE, But I wanted to Pursue Song Writing without having to have a Singing Unit

Draven_J · ‎27-12-2020

I relate to the other Person, about INNOCENSE, I have never been living In a Bad Suburbia, I live In Australia a Fabulous Country for most Average people, My Parent's have been Married for over 30 Years +, I never had Concerns through out my Life because my Parent's handled all the matters that troubled us, I never experienced Racism or Crime or Tragedies or Many Funerals, I Just Grew Up always at Home with my Hobbies and having my Family, My Brother Is my TWIN Non Identical who Is the only Person I love more than myself and same with my Mother, Who Is a Minority Blessing next to Many other Mothers, Beyond that my Father's Up and Down but does what he needs too and mostly Isn't that Bad, I started getting bothered with Society when I turned 12 and went to High School, I'm Incredibly Close to my Mother and Brother, to the Point of seeing them as a Messiah's Trust In comparison to anyone else, The last 25* Years of my Existence has Just been catered Family Support, Hobbies and Standard Schooling, I've never been exposed to Reality, and I haven't been able to Start my Life without Direction or Driving, I don't have the Esteem to handle Society because I hate everyone beyond my Family, and after Experiencing a Narcissistic Friend's I became shattered with Self Esteem, My Mother and Family was too Healthy, In Comparison to Most others, Reality and the Modern Issues of Society's Character and Prosperity Is eating me away

Truc · ‎27-12-2020

Hi Draven,

Thanks for you time to reply me

Women and friends :
Before, I did not have a job or was rich or anything like that, I was a curious person and like to talk with people, I like to talk with people to learn something new because I was living in a small town, we did not have internet or anything like that, and my parents were busy, so if I want to learn something new, somehow talking with people is one of the perfect way for me, and I had a girlfriend because of my improved communication, I did not practice purposefully but I did talk with a lot of people by chance, so I think if we lack of something, we can practice a bit to improve it, and actually people are genuinely nice, I think not everyone will care about money that much, my current girlfriend is really nice to me, when I was short of money especially when parents had not sent me money for tuition fee yet, she doesn't mind to lend me some, I was overthinking before that it was shameful but it is actually not at least in my view, and she still really loves me as I do.
Lack of Respect and Miss Internalized
I think everyone has their own story, some people had to work hard to take care of their family when they were young, some people had to live in the orphanage,...etc I was actually labelled also, I was timid back then, but to recall back, my label about me was right somehow in my case because I did not take the courage to do anything and avoid people (before the time I was more social), of course some labels are wrong some labels are true, to me, if the labels about are true, I usually sit at home and think about it critically, if it is somehow true, I will try to change not just because of people, but also for myself, I think to live is to improve and there is always room to improve in any aspect. And It can also be applied to beliefs and my views as well.

Truc · ‎27-12-2020

( TOXIC MASCULINITY )
I think that is why people need man like you, a person who can be responsible and caring to girl and women in general, to be honest, I agree those thing you said it happened a lot, and women and girls need people like you and me, to make the world better I suppose, maybe you because I think I have not yet become to an ideal man, what do you think ?
And I think it is okay if you do not have a paid job yet, I have not either, I did volunteer for some types of work because they are mostly related to my friends, like helping out their family more, and I feel reluctant if I take my friend’s money, I just don't usually like the idea, and for studying, I think just do what you think is right and suitable for you, I think you can find a lot of people became successful without a degree, or before any university established in the world, there were successful people in their own field already, so I think university or a degree...etc you name it is just one of many ways, anyways we all live once right ?