Hi all, Wondering if you could shed some light on your experience with adhd.
I’m 21, for most of my adolescence and adult years I’ve felt like my brain is unorganised and messy. I’m having trouble even paying enough attention writing this that I had to put on music and take a few social media breaks.
I watched a video on ADHD in adults and I was surprised that I could tick off a lot of the symptoms as the way I feel. I’ve researched so many mental disorders and never fully believed I had any of them, except anxiety and depression which I haven’t been diagnosed with, I convince myself I don’t need to see a doctor and just suffer more every year.
I’ll list some of the things I experience I don’t want to write too in detail as that’s boring to read but here are what I attribute to maybe being ADHD (just took another break from writing this i can’t pay enough attention)
*my room is always messy even though I hate mess and want everything to be organised and tidy. Making my bed feels like too much work and when I eventually clean my room maybe once a month it takes me ages because I get too distracted and don’t know where to start, it’s overwhelming.
*I have no life direction and have a new idea each month but can’t commit to anything
*i get bored with anything and everything in my life easily and then I don’t apply myself because I can’t bring myself to do something that isn’t stimulating. Started a course online and it was boring so I haven’t touched it in months. I only just got a fulltime job and I hate it. I feel like I need to be doing more but I never do
*along with being messy I’m unorganised and put everything off until it call comes crashing down at one time. I blame it on being a procrastinator but I feel like it’s not normal. From exercise to appointments I just put them off or don’t do them at all.
*i feel the need to constantly be working and keeping busy and on days off I feel anxiety because I know I’m putting things off. I can’t relax. (as I’m reading this back I skim over the words because I’m too impatient to read it properly which I do with all bodies of text
ive thought it has always been depression as I had a rough childhood but I’m thinking maybe anxiety and depression are co-existing with ADHD? Have any of you experienced similar feelings. I feel so lost
