I need help, I can’t cope anymore

[Unknown33]

I don’t know what to write here as my concentration has gone so bad.

I am writing because I can’t cope anymore. My mental illness is so bad. I have anxiety, depression, derealization and lately it is even worse as I have started thinking about death, not to kill myself but how each day I am getting closer to death and what is the point of living?

Im only 25 but I can’t enjoy my life, not a second of it and every minute is a struggle. I don’t have any friends at all. My mum has passed away, I’m so disconnected from everyone else as if no one exists or nothing is real. I can’t take antidepressants as I’m pregnant and right now that I should just be enjoying my pregnancy, I’m dead emotionally, mentally and physically. Morning sickness just makes it worse.

I need help but i think that help is never available to me.

I hate my feelings, myself and this situation.

[Sophie_M]

Hi Unknown33,

Welcome to our online forums - we're glad you decided to reach out here today. We're so sorry to hear how terrible you've been feeling, and about the loss of your mum. It sounds like a really difficult time for you and we can understand you might be feeling overwhelmed. Pregnancy can be really tough, not all women enjoy the experience. Not being able to take anti-depressants because of it adds an additional layer of difficulty. 

Can we ask if you are currently accessing any mental health support? If you would like some help finding mental health support, we would recommend that you get in contact with the Beyond Blue Support Service. They are available 24/7 by phone on 1300 22 4636 or on Webchat 3pm-12am AEST on our website: www.beyondblue.org.au/getsupport  One of our friendly counsellors will be able to talk through these feelings with you and can offer support, advice and referrals.

You might also be interested in our page "Pregnancy and new parents" - https://healthyfamilies.beyondblue.org.au/pregnancy-and-new-parents

Welcome again - please feel free to reach out here and keep us updated on how you're going whenever you're feeling up to it.
 

[randomspace]

Hi, I can’t say I understand what your going through as that would be insensitive as I am not you and I’m not in your mind. But although I’m not you, I can say that suicide is not a good option, I attempted multiple times and although it seems as an escape, there are other ways. It may not seem like there are other ways, there are and there always will be. Perhaps you could speak to a therapist, or get support? If that doesn’t work, tether yourself to an anchor, I don’t know what that is, but tether yourself, it could be your child, an enjoyment, or even just yourself. Because you are worth it and that can’t be taken. I am sorry if this is not helpful.