I need help but don't want to talk to anybody

[Unknown76]

I feel empty, like there is nothing in life anymore. I go to work at a place i hate with a passion and then go home and sleep all the time.

Yeah i know i have to talk to a profession or anybody but i over that, enough I don't want to do that and if thats what somebody is going tomtell me to do then this is no help.

I can't breath anymore, medication not working nothing is working.

[Rob57]

This is my first post! I am going through hell with my anxiety and depression. To be honest I can’t understand how this hideous disease can be so debilitating. I suffer from the time I wake till the time I go to bed. I have tried medication, but it just doesn’t seem to work! My Dr has mentioned ect but I am extremely sceptical about this treatment. I’m a 61 year old male who has had this anxiety and depression for 12 months now! It’s not getting any better so maybe I’m willing to try anything to get my sanity back.

[geoff]

Hi Rob, welcome to the site and thanks for posting your comment.

It is sad that this illness can destroy our lifestyle, wreck our ability to think clearly and create havoc within ourselves because it is debilitating, it doesn't understand what love is, nor does it want us to make friends, it's a long battle with overwhelming sadness, grief, and a feeling of guilt.

I am not qualified to say, only you and your doctor can make this decision, however, I'm 63 and been through depression and anxiety for a long time and know what it's done to my life, now I hope I've overcome all of this, although relapses have occurred.

I know how you would be feeling but has there been any other options offered to you, like being admitted to hospital, having counselling and I know that it took several different types of antidepressants (AD) before my GP found the one which helps me.

Have you been able to read any other different comments?

Hope to hear back from you.

Geoff

[Doolhof]

Hi Rob,

Welcome to the community here. I see that Geoff has welcomed yo and responded to you. It is great you feel comfortable to share your story here.

I would like to suggest, that if you feel comfortable to do so, you might like to start up your own thread, that way you may receive more replies and comments.

If you don't feel comfortable doing that, it is okay, we can chat with you here.

Sorry to read you are experiencing depression and anxiety. Like Geoff, I have had these conditions for a very long time.

Writing how I am feeling helps me. so hopefully by sharing here, you may be able to better understand what you are experiencing.

Trying to understand depression and how it affects me helps me as well. The more I know, the more I can help myself.

If you don't mind me asking, have you been to a psychologist to seek ways and strategies that can help you through each day? One psychologist told me the more I fight the illness, the worse it can become. He suggested I try to accept the days I am struggling as my reality for that period of time, then to try and do something to push through it.

Hopefully you will feel comfortable here on the forum and you can be supported and listened to.

Cheers for now from Dools

[girl8]

I need help. I constantly hid how I feel from everyone I know. a few close friends know but I they struggle to. i know I'm not going live past my twenties and I don't see myself having a future. i need to get help but my parents don't know how I feel. i cant tell them because they wont believe me and think I'm dramatic. everytime I eat I feel guilty. i feel guilty for just living. i already have constant s******l thoughts and I feel selfish for thinking about that because I feel like I'm just going to take the attention. i cant because my family will think they didn't check up on me. everyone will feel bad and then again, that leaves me feeling selfish. my mind is like a warzone to my own body. i don't feel right in my own body and I cry everyday before I shower looking in the mirror. i feel unworthy. tbh, I'm just tired. I'm tired of hurting and feeling like a piece of sh*t everyday. i will not leave you with my name but I'm 13 and I'm giving myself 7 years to get better.

[Sophie_M]

Hey girl8,

Welcome to the Beyond Blue forums. We're so sorry to hear that you're struggling with these dark thoughts at the moment, but please know that you don't have to go through this on your own. These forums are a safe, non-judgemental space to talk about your thoughts and feelings, and our wonderful community is here to provide you with as much support, advice and conversation as you need.

Our Support Service are also trying to reach out to you via email as we are worried about you.

We hope you know that there is always help available to you. We think it's really strong of you and so important that you have been able to recognise you need some help and seeking it. We'd really recommend reaching out to our friends at Kids Helpline- they are a confidential and anonymous, telephone and online counselling service specifically for young people aged 25 and under. The lovely counsellors are available 24/7 on 1800 55 1800 or you can also get in touch through their webchat anytime at  https://kidshelpline.com.au/get-help/webchat-counselling/ 

We would also strongly urge that in overwhelming moments you get in touch with our friends at Lifeline (13 11 14) or the Suicide Call Back Service (1300 659 467).

If you would like to post further, please feel free to tell us more about what's on your mind and how we can best support you through this. You're also welcome to create a new thread to share your journey and expand on these thoughts and feelings, and our community can offer support and advice to help you through this.

[RoseQuartz]

Hi Unknown76,

I know you are disappointed right now, but things can improve based on some new approaches to drive some change. It may take time so please be patient and don't give up. Nothing good comes easy 🙂

As humans we are formed with a gift of emotional and behavioural indicators that help us know when something is not aligned to what we value / believe or want. It is a very important function you do not want to mute with medication or sleep because you want to know when something is wrong to help pull yourself out and treat yourself with a new alignment which lets you reach a different lifestyle for the current point of time.

By taking notice this is showing your self a lot of care and respect. Well done observing! Also it comes across like you have invested a bit of time in reflection too because you said that work in particular did not inspire you right now.

Upfront, I am not a professional, naturally I want the best for you and would say contact our specialized team at Beyond Blue for resources that are friendly and helpful.

Lastly, have you tried creating a list like what you enjoy doing, the dream job position or environment you may want and looking at skills you may have or want to have? Wish lists and goals are very motivating, who knows it may keep you awake from sleeping because you are so interested in this. If there's ways to get exposure into a different company or new field do volunteering, apply for jobs, research or listen to free podcasts. You have got this! I can't wait to see the endless things you will achieve.

Keep smiling!

[girl8]

i am okay now.

[Guest_498]

Hi Unknown,

I currently feel as you do and I don't go to therapy either. I cannot go talk to one. I cry most nights and at 'the drop of a hat'. At times I cry uncontrollably. Therapy isn't for everyone. We all manage pain, sadness & trauma in our own way - people cannot tell you that talking to a 'professional' is the best method, it isn't always best. I think sometimes it makes you feel worst. Good company, kind-hearted people and empathy is always a better alternative, if you're fortunate enough to have them. Try to keep your chin up, reach out here when you're feeling terrible. We're here for you.

[Guest_498]

You say that you need help, but don't want to talk to anybody. You don't have to talk to anybody if you don't want to. It's not an absolute MUST to go to therapy. And what do you need help with?

[Jasjit]

Hi Unknown,

After reading your original posts and follow up posts, I strongly feel you have the insight into what is currently bothering you!! Good work on that!! You know exactly what is your problem!! Guess what now? Half of the battle is already won.

So how can we accomplish the other half of the battle? Personally, I feel you could bring a lifestyle change.

What I will be suggesting may sound obvious but you could try it for a week and if it does not work please let me know! So just for a week, try going vegan (only consuming whole food plants based diet free of additives, preservatives, etc.) with vigorous exercise combined with meditation and yoga practices. If you do this for a week, you could see excellent results!! Your mood and energy could skyrocket!! You will start living your life. Right now you might feel frustrated on why things are not working out - which is completely fine but what matters right now is the next step!!!

Please try this and tell me how you go. I would really like to help and support you.

Talk to you soon.