I'm so Lost

Creative_Mind
Community Member

I'm 28years old i have an amazing  supportive husband 2 boys a beautiful  house,pets my own Hairdressing Salon and my husband has his own Electrical  business.Every morning i wake up do my hair and makeup just right, get my kids ready for School feed my pets.Then the nightmare begins.Behind this seemingly  put together Women is a terrified,angry,frustrated and most importantly a sad person.Taking my children to School.I'm faced everday with the fear of taking them to class and waiting for that bell to go so i can excape the people the you look great and how are you feeling how's  work.I need your help with my hair comments.I start work in my salon in my home because I'm too afraid  to work anywhere else.I frantically run around make my house perfect  incase someonne spots a flaw.I get through the day with everyone dumping on me with their issues and always finishing  with a comment.Great my hair hair looks good i feel great and thanks for the chat i feel so much better.Im left with comments from people.Are getting skinner? You don't need to loose anymore weight.How about a how are you going? And i would say well actually  I'm  struggling I'm loosing weight because I'm sick with worry and trying to keep this perfect happy image up.After my day of pretending ends my darling  husband comes home to which  i greet him with a cold distant hello,or a thank god your home.No how was you day hunny or hug 

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Creative_Mind
Community Member

Apologies for the terrible grammar its 2am and i totally pressed post without finishing by accident.I will hopefully get the hang of this soon 🙂

geoff
Champion Alumni
Champion Alumni

dear Creative Mind, it's early for you to post but this is indicative of how you are feeling, but thank you so much for giving us the opportunity.

I said to my doctor last week that he has so many patients who come and see him, all complaining about their own ailments, maybe some serious and maybe some being only hypochondriac, and please I'm not referring to anyone here, so I said with all these problems who do you talk to, and he said no one, so I asked him how he was going, as he and I often have a joke together, so we will a chat on many other different topics.

He does say when he sees me waiting 'oh no not you again can't I see you next year' only being jovial.

I would think that people coming to have their hair done by you, could think that you are the person in control, which would mean that they feel comfortable disclosing their problems to you, and may feel embarrassed asking you.

When I see my psychologist I first of all ask how he has been going, but there would be a limited amount of people who would do this, because he is the man in charge, and yes he is, but it shouldn't stop the patient asking how they are going.

Imagine a psychologist seeing 10 patients a day, well no different to what happens with you, everyone telling them of their own traumas, and I don't mean any harm to those who do visit a psychologist, I'm just saying.

No one who doesn't pay any attention to how you are going in your very heavy lifestyle, doesn't appreciate how you are feeling and how was your day is in denial.

I do know that if by any chance you could interrupt their story, they will only go back to their own story, irrespective of what you had to say about yourself.

I know how you are feeling and would love to hear more of YOUR story, so please post again.

L Geoff. x

 

Dear Creative Mind

Hello and welcome. Geoff has given you such a terrific reply that there is not much for me to say.

I do agree with him about being the person everyone talks to and that shows you are an empathetic person, trusted by your clients and willing to listen to them. I believe this is quite common in professions such as hairdressing. It is such an intimate relationship between hairdresser and client. This does not mean you need to let it govern your life.

Geoff spoke about his psychologist and compared the psych's job with yours. It's the same with doctors. People discuss their problems all day. I have asked my GP and my psych how they cope with all this information, usually doom and gloom. My doctor says she is trained to put it out of her mind when away from work. The psych says he regularly debriefs with someone. You do not have this refuge so I suggest you have a chat with your doctor about it. Ask how you can learn to listen without taking it all on board and becoming exhausted. Your doctor will definitely understand.

I realise this is probably a long shot, but is there some way you can have a separate entrance to your salon? This will avoid people walking through your house and will take some pressure off you. Can you change a window into a door? Much nicer to keep your business away from your home even if they are both in the same building.

I am curious about why you are afraid to work in a separate salon. Do you have some anxiety about being away from home? I wonder if this is affecting your sense of comfort because others are "invading" your sanctuary, that is , your home. Just a couple of things to consider. Hope to hear from you again.

Mary