I feel like I have hit a brick wall.

[calmseeker]

I feel lost. I have been trying really really hard to manage my anxiety and stay positive and take all the right steps to help myself, and for a few months I felt a bit better and even felt a bit empowered to offer some assistance to others but as of the last few days I have had terrible panic attacks again with nasty symptoms resurfacing and now I just feel really depressed and very disappointed that my efforts to overcome this condition are all in vain. I have tried to eat well and do a bit of exercise, I have started online CBT therapy which have committed too and working really hard at but the debilitating symptoms have reared their ugly head again and now I just feel really sad and tired and quite hopeless really. I have a few challenging things going on in my life that I am trying to deal with but don't we all? I don't feel like I am getting much help from my GP and I am seeing a psychologist but the visits are nearly 2 months apart as she is busy, I feel hopeful on the actual day I see the psychologist but the feeling is gone by that evening so I don't feel I am getting much out of it. It takes a lot of energy and effort to live with anxiety and I just cant seem to muster up any more motivation or hope to fight this battle right now. Feeling very low.

[Katyonthehamsterwheel]

Hi again

Just thought I'd pop back in and see how the day went for you? Did you manage to do something nice for you?

And yes, you're correct on the things we have in common. And I agree that the forums have been a godsend in normalising a variety of aspects related to anxiety/depression. It's so nice to have found this space and likeminded people.

My kind thoughts, Katy

[calmseeker]

Hey there Katy,

I popped out for a bit, my goal was to indulge my senses in some homewares stores (I love interior design). I just wasn't feeling it today. I felt very dizzy and my vision was blurry and I had that nasty feeling of doom hanging over me, like something awful was just about to happen. I tried hard to just breath and focus on the stuff I had learnt in CBT but I wasn't doing so well so I came home. I just keep trying to remember that this comes and goes, it doesn't last forever and I could be feeling semi normal again soon. I re read the thread "what physical feelings of anxiety do you get' because I don't feel as isolated when I know others are having the same sensations as I am experiencing, I even come across the more obscure symptoms in that thread. I appreciate you popping back on to ask me how I am doing, thanks a bunch for that. I hope your day has been good to you. CS

[Katyonthehamsterwheel]

Absolutely it comes and goes! Hope tomorrow is a bit shinier x

[blondguy]

Hello CS

I feel your pain on this CS...These dark feelings can be the same as a serious physical condition...There is no difference except how others view us as we dont have any visible signs of a physical injury....I used to have difficulty 'leaving the house' too...and that is a bad place to be in CS...I remember how awful that was

I stole a sentence from an old book whose author was a psychiatrist who suffered from ongoing anxiety attacks and depression..... Dr Claire Weekes (Self help for your nerves)..Sure the title is old fashioned yet it is written in plain english without the hype....(when we have a tired mind it can be difficult to read/concentrate on anything)

Dr Claire Weekes said in her book...."above all...be gentle to yourself"

hugs...(if thats okay)

Paul

[calmseeker]

Thanks Tim - I will have a peek at those links and threads. I am totally willing and open to anything that can reduce symptoms at the moment. Appreciate the heads up 🙂

[calmseeker]

Hi Paul - 'Tired mind' is a good way of describing how it has been for me the last few days. Trying to live with anxiety and panic and master the management of it is proving to be hard work. I feel like I am failing at applying the CBT I have been learning and I find myself stressing about what is left to do if it doesn't work. Exercise and clean eating and learning strategies requires some dedication and effort which is all fine until a dose of depression gets thrown into the mix. I have had a bout of insomnia lately and maybe this is why I have hit the brick wall with my recovery. I am hoping the low mood passes soon and I can get on with learning to manage the anxiety.

Hugs right back at cha, CS.

[Hanna3]

Hi CS I've found your thread. Great now I know where to post to you.

Sorry I couldn't post much yesterday I got busy and then really tired. It would be nice to be able to buy tissues and loo paper, both of which I need, but our entire town seems to be sold out of it...

Anyway now I've found your thread I know where to chat to you, so I'll be back. I hope things are OK with you.. chat soon, best wishes!

[calmseeker]

Hi there Hanna,

Oh dear, really? Now my curiosity has peaked even more , but anyway, its all good thanks for trying.

I hope you are doing ok and your house is cooling down a little for your comfort. I will pop over to your thread some time soon and have a chat.

Hope you have the best day possible Hanna.

CS xo