I've been dealing with depression for the first time this year since March and despite the helps I got through medical professionals and friends, I feel like I don't know who I am anymore. I don't know what I want, I don't know what I want to do and I don't know what can make me feel better. My brain is in constant chaos and during most of the day I just wanna shut it off so I don't need to think. I just feel so lost within myself. In a way, I feel like maybe it was better when I was oblivious to this. I recently read an article about self-esteem and that without self-understanding, you cannot feel anything good about yourself simply because you don't know what you are.
So... I guess my question is how can i figure out myself and understand myself more? I tried writing things down about myself but I didn't event know where to begin.
